..I didn't mean to do it. It just happened. Something I said. I think it's because of sharing my transition experience. She works with a lot of trans patients, its her specialty. She probably hears the heartache, the pain, the confusion the suffering and the anger so common with us every day. To hear my story I guess made her day. I'm actually crying right now writing this but I feel it needs to be shared. Sharing is caring or so I've been told. Maybe that was referring to toys with other kids? Who cares you get it anyways.
At the end of this week I leave work for one of the major stages of my journey. Over the past months I've had many of nerve bending conversation with many people who I have worked with the past few years of my life. They know me but never really knew me. Now they know me more than ever. Those I could not tell in one on one my manager arranged meetings so I could tell them in groups. In response I've gotten hugs, good lucks, and support like I could never have dreamed of. I've made friends and gotten closer to people I never gave a second look to before. From the beefed up jock to the crazy christian lady, it doesn't matter, everyone has taken my hand and wished me luck. At the end of this week I end my life as one person and begin it as another, my true self.
My co-workers are throwing me a party Saturday night to celebrate, I could never had expected in a million years the love and compassion I've received. The support from both my family and my job and been beyond anything I could have imagined and is the armor the protects me from the fears this transition brings. Next week I have FFS, my mom is taking care of me afterwards, still wanting to baby me like i'm her little child. I guess she still sees me that way and I should be thankful to have a family that stands by my side when the families of so many turn their backs to their own children for who they are. I hope that one day every transsexual child can have the experience I have had so far. I only pray to whatever gods may be watching over me that they continue to do so.
