Good day,
My name is Salman from Canada and I am FTM trans. I was in search of a forum that could provide support and where everyone is treated with respect and his one the forum that alot of people recommended to me.
Currently my life is in a mess and i need all the support and information i could get from anyone. I am 24years old and transsexual. My family doesn't know actually no one does except my therapist who I've been seeing in the past month. Since i was a child (3 or 4) i stopped wearing girl clothes. Never wore a dress, never put on make up and never had a relationship with a guy because in my head i think i am a guy myself..the only time i get frustrated is when i see myself naked but other then that i have always believed that i am a guy.
To make things worst and hard i am muslim and muslim communities (99%) has no idea what transsexuality is, this is a topic that even you ask questions then you are the talk of the town and everyone will point fingers at you. In the past few years i researched alot about Islam and transsexuality, and it is actually not haram (forbidden) but no one wants to talk about it because they are to busy judging each other.
So currently my therapist is the only person who knows what i am going through; i have no idea if i will ever be able to bring this up to my family and friends.
The muslim community is the people that i do not care about what they think of me because i believe in allah and follow my religion the best i can but i am really scared to come out to my parents. I have no idea what their reaction will be, something like this has never happened in my family or even community.
It is hard and as time goes away i know it is turning really hard for me because i am in wrong body.
My parents think that one day they will tell me to change my clothes/behaviour like a girl and i will do that no problem. I have no idea how will be able to explain this to them.
So thats why i am here so i could get some support and information, i know there is so much about transsexuality that i don't know because when i was young i was told if you need something you pray and ask god and he will give you that, i remember praying day and night and asking god to turn my body into a male body but i think i've reached an age where i know it doesn't work like that.
Looks like this battle will be really long and i just pray to allah that i dont lose hope and keep it strong.
Thank you,
Salman
