Someone pointed out that I've never formally introduced myself, so here goes.
There's not a lot to introduce. I've been posting here for a while, but never told you who I am. Deliberately avoiding addressing the issue?
A shell of a guy, who has over the past few months realized that it's all been an illusion, and a mirage of a female, somewhere out there on the horizon - maybe one of those visions of an oasis that thirsty lost souls in the middle of a desert see far in the distance, only to arrive and find themselves drinking mouthfuls of sand.
I'm not me right now, and I don't know who to introduce. I'm not sure that there's anyone to present to you.
But perhaps that's introduction enough. Just another confused soul in the middle of so many stuck in gender purgatory, trying to figure out how to find happiness and balance without destroying the lives of everyone who cares about him (and who he hopes will find consolation by caring about her instead.)
We'll figure this out together.