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I Just Told My Father...

Started by Yukari-sensei, September 06, 2013, 06:44:58 PM

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Yukari-sensei

Today was a day I have dreaded for awhile. The relationship between my father and I has been rather tempestuous over the past two decades and during my parent's divorce we even came to blows. Fortunately for both of us, as we both became older and wiser, we would limit our exchanges to pugilistic rhetoric. Even these could be ugly though. Politics, philosophy, economics, and religion - even when we had reached the same conclusion, we would criticize the other's reasoning!

I tried to delay telling my father about being transgender for the longest time, afraid of what he would say or do. I could not delay this in perpetuity - he's a preceptor for the academic program I'm a candidate for! I can't tell you how many times I pictured an ugly confrontation resulting from an innocent, "you both have the same last name, is she your daughter?" or simply running into each other in the same unit, shocked at seeing each other...

Today I faced my fear and told him after he asked, "why are you wearing nail polish?" I told him everything, right down to treating our sink as a wishing well and clogging it with pennies when I was five... My conservative father... my VERY CONSERVATIVE, "this pope is too liberal" and "Vatican II was a mistake, mass should still be in Latin!" father... told me he loved me and I was his child no matter what. :icon_tears:

"You were born into a difficult row to hoe, and there will be people who will not accept you. There will even be friends who may reject you, but as I have gotten older I see more and more people are born a certain way and we can force them to fight it and be miserable or let them be happy. Find your happiness... and if you ever feel like you don't want to go on because people can be hurtful, call me or call somebody! I will always be here for you."

Thank you dad! I love you too!
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Ltl89

Aww!  I'm glad it went so well.  It sounds like you have a great loving father.  Congrats!  :)
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Aina

Stuff like this always makes me tear up a bit, it sounds like you have a great dad and congrats!
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Yukari-sensei

Thank you everyone for all your best wishes. It was certainly a surprise, but a very pleasant one.

We all can change, we all can grow.
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warlockmaker

Im so happy for you. That is the way it should be, parential love has no boundaries and is not gender specific. Good positive stories are so good for our spirit. Thank you for sharing
When we first start our journey the perception and moral values all dramatically change in wonderment. As we evolve further it all becomes normal again but the journey has changed us forever.

SRS January 21st,  2558 (Buddhist calander), 2015
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Keaira

Awww! I teared up because it reminded me of my dad when I came out to him. We used to fight a lot when I was growing up and now he calls me "honey" and "sweetie". I'm really happy for you. :D
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PrincessDayna

Awww this makes me tear up a little, it reminds me of my dad...i went to so manyntherapists growing up, each one telling my dad i was gender dysphoric, and according to my health issues i should see an endocrinologist for testing...each time was met with a staunch "my son will not be gay and wear dresses"... He even left me sitting there as he walked out the room one time, and my mom had to come pick me up from the office (parents are divorced). He would threaten to kill my mom if she took me to any specialist doctors, andveven asked therapists if it was possible to "send him to a place for reprogramming"..so ya, he was the last person my fiance and myself informed, by phone due to him being across state....

"hey dad you sitting down?"
"yeah whats up son?"
"well, i finally went and got testing done with an endo."
"what did they say?"
"well, lets get to it, and just say you have a daughter and not a son...."
Silence
"well, i love you either way kiddo, I hope you are doing the right thing."
And we went into deeper conversation about the whole being intersexed thing and why therapists would always say i needed to see a speialist. He doesnt call me son anymore, but hes still grasping this i think, as he does call me kiddo instead now....and that conversation was only three monthes ago.

I think age changes people a lot...especially parents...it meant the world to me. So your story reminded me of my dad, and our conversation. It really put a few tears to my eyes. Congrats! :)
"Self truth is evident when one accepts self awareness.  From such, serenity". ~Me  ;)



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