Perhaps we could try from this angle as well...
What makes you feel you are not ready to talk to a therapist about your issues? Is it explaining why you are seeing someone to family? Is it that you do not feel you have the resources to go about finding one? Would you be willing to participate in a support group in your area?
In general what everyone here is telling you is that you need to find someone who you can talk to locally, face to face about your issues. The best we can do from a forum is provide you with resources on helping yourself, and aiding with courage in seeking out help.