Its been quite some time since I've been here. I had to do a bit of soul searching. I finally started seeing a gender therapist and things seem to be going well. It took quite some time to get an appointment because I had to switch therapists to one that would better coincide with my work schedule. I may have a contact with a doctor who is interested in possibly prescribing hormones and has interest in learning the process. How I believe it would work is initially, I would see someone who is already familiar with HRT then continue with the doctor closer to my home. I am getting laser hair removal for my neck, chest, and abdomen. That is slow, very expensive, and quite painful but will be worth it in the end. I am wearing bras all the time now under my regular clothes. My therapist calls it my "training bra" stage. I barely notice I'm wearing one anymore. I seem to be amassing a collection of bras as well. I also have grown out my hair to a point where I can style it a bit by combing it to one side then using a barrette to keep the hair out of my eyes. People notice it around but its not a big deal.
Overall, I am slowing trying to feminize myself for the eventuality of taking hormones someday; wearing bras, styling hair, perfume, ladies bootcut jeans, etc. Basically, seeing what I can get away with before people start asking real questions. I can see the proverbial light at the end of the tunnel and my female self is on the other end. I feel a sense of excitement like its actually coming true. Its good to know I have a place here for advise, encouragement, and mentoring.
