Thanks everyone. Ltl, I'm so scared of seeing a doctor. I don't want it to affect my transition. I know I need to, but I don't want them to blame all of my GD on my mental health problems. They're 2 completely separate things.
Sephirah, that was an amazing post, thank you. You're completely right and I didn't look at the voice like that before. Thanks for the tips about how to make it quieter, I will start doing that.
Thanks for being there everyone.