Kai, you don't have to do anything you don't feel comfortable with
I was actually at that stage myself, of feeling really really blah. I just laid there in my room, and everything was running through my head, and this dark pit in my stomach started to form when I thought that I needed to get myself ready to head out. In the last few years I have tried so hard, too hard, to dress and act like someone I'm not. And I just could not think of doing it another day. Get up, get dressed, brush the long hair an of course, the make up... Since I was just supposed to be a girl.
And as for your link Kai, I just actually left a comment there as a matter of fact xD
*Showers Kai with some of my courage, throwing some confetti, sprinkles, chocolate, flowers and maybe even a hint of puppy's... Don't ask...*
And! I might even be brave enough to tell my dad if he comes over, which he might this weekend!
What actually gave me that extra step was the fact that just right before, a friend of mine told me she had just been diagnosed with cancer. She is the strongest person I know, so I know she will take that cancer and make it her bitch. But, I also realized that life is too short. In less then a year, I myself had to undergo twice a cancer check up since I am one of those who will very likely get it as well. I came out clean, but I have already showed the symptoms twice.
And Maggie! Thank you! *smooches Maggie's cheek when she joins in on the happy dance* MUAH!
*Gives Kai a smooch on the cheek too*
If the two of you ever feel bleh, need someone to talk to, or just talk to an idiot who likes to make people laugh, then don't ever be afraid to talk to me ^^
And Kai? That song is great! I could hear right away.... I had the same thing when I was listening to a song with a band called Placebo. Here are some of the lyrics I could relate to sooooo much.
"And if I only could,
Make a deal with God,
And get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,
Be running up that hill,
Be running up that building.
If I only could, oh..."
