Transitioning has been up in the air for me. The main reason is I love a woman and losing her would be a tragedy. Love is a verb, not a feeling. When I am with her, I am fairly comfortable with my male side and heterosexuality. My relationship with her tips me in that direction. It's complex. I love her AND I want to be her. Would I give her up and be a happy woman without her? I doubt it. My focus is outward, rather than inward. I can relate to a lot of Jo's pros and cons. I never hated my male side.