What are you thinking? (Version 6)

[PaleDragoness]

Wasn't familiar with this. Thank you for the suggestion.

They are singers of sacred music. I live in Connecticut where they are based and they had a show 8pm Sunday night and it happened to be free. Yale was sponsoring the performance and the place was packed full and it was also their 40th year. It would make you cry hearing them sing.

[DriftingCrow]

What BS, I downloaded the "free" Wall Street Journal app, turns out you can only read one article a day, if you want to read more you need to get a $22/month subscription. They should just make you pay for the app.

[Kristal]

I'm out of razor blades and so is my local store. I'm three days into this beard and it's making me want to claw my face off with my bare hands.

[Devlyn]

The trumpets have sounded.

[Danielle Emmalee]

The trumpets have sounded.

Time for the rapture?

[Ms Grace]

Insomnia... guh. Hate it... 

[Kittenswithmittens]

Think I just hit a record. Showered for what felt like ages. Did my belly, legs (!!!!), stache, thighs and whatnot. Now I will roll around like crazy in bed tonight. Been many weeks (if not months) since I did that. I feel so fresh haha.

[Beth Andrea]

Think I just hit a record. Showered for what felt like ages. Did my belly, legs (!!!!), stache, thighs and whatnot. Now I will roll around like crazy in bed tonight. Been many weeks (if not months) since I did that. I feel so fresh haha.

OMG I love that feeling too...

Insomnia... guh. Hate it... 

A sure cure is to sleep on it, you won't have insomnia anymore.

[Beth Andrea]

I'm feeling...good. Like after a wonderful morning stretch good.

And listening to the Tallis Scholars on YT.

FYI, if anyone is in the Seattle area...check out the Compline service at St Marks Cathedral on Capitol Hill. They have an a capela choir on Sunday night at 930, and OMG imagine this style of music in a Medieval church, with hundreds of people sitting in the pews and on the floor, on blankets, pillows, and cuddled with their SO...very LGBTQ friendly, btw. (It is Capitol Hill, after all).

The music blows my mind...and to experience the people-aura...beyond words.

[Ms Grace]

A sure cure is to sleep on it, you won't have insomnia anymore.

I wish, I wish! my problem isn't getting to sleep at bed time, that happens so easily it's stupid. Then, at some time during the night, I'll wake up and not be able to get back to sleep for one or two hours. It's usually between 2 and 4 am... a total pain! zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz........

[Beth Andrea]

I wish, I wish! my problem isn't getting to sleep at bed time, that happens so easily it's stupid. Then, at some time during the night, I'll wake up and not be able to get back to sleep for one or two hours. It's usually between 2 and 4 am... a total pain! zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz........

I had the same problem...in my case, it was 1-3...and it was directly related to a particular round of abuse. My ex would say I would get "very active" in bed, thrashing, "running", etc and my dreams (if I recalled them) were always of a "running and gunning" nature. Or running to hide.

Not saying your insomnia is from that kind of background, but maybe examine your thoughts at the time of waking? (And keep in mind that abuse can be totally hidden until later in life...so even if your body/mind says, "Oh, it's nothing", allow it to express whatever it needs, without judgement)

It could just be stress, too. Worry, anxiety, etc. Or maybe your neighbor coming home at 0155...

[Apples Mk.II]

Today has been rather strange. At 16:10 I was studying when I got a phone call from my LGBT support association. Apparently The woman's institute had commissioned a study on views and experiences from homosexual women, including the transgendered ones. Looks like I was the backup in case the previous one could not come. Just to have a recorded chat in which we would discuss our relation with the municipal public services (sport facilities, job search, health providers and Gender Identity Clinics, legal service, etc) with coffee and cookies.

Well, I couldn't say no after having been there for transition orientation, support groups... At 19:30 today. Ten minutes later I get another call saying that they got it wrong and it is at 17:00... In 40 minutes. I still had to shower, fix my hair a bit, get dressed and put all the makeup, plus a 30 minutes trip...

I got there at 17:30. Looks like my voice sounds kinda better than other trans women. Oh yes, first time I am with another one for more the two seconds of crossing paths while going to therapy. Anyways, I really did not understand the importance they were putting on the impact of homosexuality on daily lives. One thing is identifying with gender, but everything sounded strange since to most people my sexual orientation remains a mystery (I'm not even sure myself and I could go with asexual right now)...


Too many hours outside since I had support group right after that. I'm busted...

[Adam (birkin)]

Thinkingthat it will be so hard to leave keaira tomorrow *sigh*I also wish she wasnt working overtime today.

[Ms Grace]

It could just be stress, too. Worry, anxiety, etc. Or maybe your neighbor coming home at 0155...

I'm pretty sure it's all of the above... except the neighbour leaves for work at 0330! (Poor guy, he's very considerate and quiet, but sometimes even the gentlest click of his door is enough to wake me up). Got an awful lot going on at work with a restructure in play and I'm the staff rep and union delegate (and masochist, apparently) so I have a lot on my plate trying to make sense of it all. But it's undoubtedly the HRT too, the insomnia has calmed down a lot since I changed to a sub dermal pellet in place of one of one particular pill. I thought it had been solved but the stress at work the last couple of days means if I wake up (or am woken up) during the night my brain starts game playing whether I want to or not. "Sleep, who needs that?" says my brain!

[Shantel]

I'm pretty sure it's all of the above... except the neighbour leaves for work at 0330! (Poor guy, he's very considerate and quiet, but sometimes even the gentlest click of his door is enough to wake me up). Got an awful lot going on at work with a restructure in play and I'm the staff rep and union delegate (and masochist, apparently) so I have a lot on my plate trying to make sense of it all. But it's undoubtedly the HRT too, the insomnia has calmed down a lot since I changed to a sub dermal pellet in place of one of one particular pill. I thought it had been solved but the stress at work the last couple of days means if I wake up (or am woken up) during the night my brain starts game playing whether I want to or not. "Sleep, who needs that?" says my brain!

I've always had spates of that including night sweats and I'm not real fat, I think it's HRT connected because the gonads shrink just like a cis woman's ovaries do during menopause, that's what we go through for the most part. Back when I had my orchiectomy I was amazed to see that the gonads had shrunk to the size of peas under the influence of female hormones. Another thing that seems to exacerbate that same problem post-orchie is any change in hormone levels as we do still retain a prostate which responds by shrinking or enlarging depending on what's going on in our bodies.

[Shaina]

I've always had spates of that including night sweats and I'm not real fat, I think it's HRT connected because the gonads shrink just like a cis woman's ovaries do during menopause, that's what we go through for the most part. Back when I had my orchiectomy I was amazed to see that the gonads had shrunk to the size of peas under the influence of female hormones. Another thing that seems to exacerbate that same problem post-orchie is any change in hormone levels as we do still retain a prostate which responds by shrinking or enlarging depending on what's going on in our bodies.

Oh I'm sorry you're going through that Mom! That's awful, if it's any consolation my Grandma Rose is the same way. She even keeps a fan on in the winter time!

[Shantel]

Oh I'm sorry you're going through that Mom! That's awful, if it's any consolation my Grandma Rose is the same way. She even keeps a fan on in the winter time!

Thanks doll baby, I'm pretty much past it at this point, just sharing with the younger set. I saw a woman out shopping recently wearing shorts, and it's definitely not shorts weather, she pulled a little battery driven fan out of her big purse and was blowing it in her face, she had lit up and was really pink. I commented telling her that it will pass honey, been there and done that! 

[Ms Grace]

I've always had spates of that including night sweats and I'm not real fat, I think it's HRT connected because the gonads shrink just like a cis woman's ovaries do during menopause, that's what we go through for the most part. Back when I had my orchiectomy I was amazed to see that the gonads had shrunk to the size of peas under the influence of female hormones. Another thing that seems to exacerbate that same problem post-orchie is any change in hormone levels as we do still retain a prostate which responds by shrinking or enlarging depending on what's going on in our bodies.

Yes, I find myself getting easily over heated too. That's also improved since switching to the sub dermal pellet, but heading into summer means it's fairly moot! I'm really glad women generally wear lighter clothing and less of it.

[PaleDragoness]

I think something clicked in my father's head since this morning. He's not treating me like a doormat today. I like it.

[Shantel]

Yes, I find myself getting easily over heated too. That's also improved since switching to the sub dermal pellet, but heading into summer means it's fairly moot! I'm really glad women generally wear lighter clothing and less of it.

The pellet is the best way to go for sure. Grace you must live in Aussieland, it's getting colder here in the Northwestern US. My dearly departed auntie was from Sydney.