I wish there was a cure for autism. Many aspie autists say they wouldn't want one. I used to say that too and i meant it, but now that i've had a major relapse behaviorwise, i wish that there was anything to release me from it. I didn't remember it being that bad. I suppressed my memories of how bad i felt. I suppressed my earliest memories of my chronic depression caused by not being normal. I did not build a mask though, i just became mostly normal, just a NORMAL lone wolf. Now, i am sensitive to touch again, my emotions are running wild, my anxiety is up to eleven again and i am loathing myself for everything again.
