When does it get better?

[BeefxCake]

My life for whatever reason has just been in this perpetual down ward slope.

I start thinking it'll get better but then it gets worse.

Tomorrow love of my life and my best friend is leaving for a year and a half on a mission. Can't call her. Can't go visit her. And i love her so much, she knows how i feel, and im just, well im being but hurt and i feel really alone even though im not.

I feel like im dragging myself through each day at college, i go home to relax and my parents are in their own drama. I can't relax there. I can't go to my love anymore.

When she gets back ill have been on t for almost a year. I get to start in may. And honestly that is the only positive thing i have going for me. But until then i just want to crawl into a hole and hibernate till everythings over and i dont have to stress over school or people.

And i want to not think like its all horrible and ill get better but i just have no energy, no motivation and no heart to do anything. I feel lifeless and like im not even living right now and im just done.

[JillSter]

But until then i just want to crawl into a hole and hibernate till everythings over and i dont have to stress over school or people.

That's exactly what I did, and I ended up hibernating for about 12 years. Once you crawl into that hole it's really, really hard to climb out of it. It's dark and lonely and painful in there. Please don't do that. It only makes it worse.

Go outside, take in some sunlight and fresh air, and wait. Your love will be back eventually. For now, find a hobby or passion, volunteer, or do anything that makes you smile. It all adds up. Trust me.

^This.

[Beth Andrea]

That's exactly what I did, and I ended up hibernating for about 12 years. Once you crawl into that hole it's really, really hard to climb out of it. It's dark and lonely and painful in there. Please don't do that. It only makes it worse.

^This.

+1

Jillian speaks the truth.

Stay (or get) involved in something, where you give back to others. Volunteer--at food bank, for LGBTQ events/support, or even at nursing homes (the elderly are very lonely, and would love to see a young face...they can share so much of their lives...) Also, by volunteering, you'll have something in common with your love when she gets back...you don't want to be in the position of the both of you growing apart by different interests. (imho)

Just a thought. I can't follow my own advice just yet though, because I'm still trying to get a foothold in my self-made Pit.