Jessica Merriman

[Claire (formerly Magdalena)]

I received a worrying email from Jessica just over 36 hours ago. It reads like she's saying good-bye. I'm scared for her. She isn't answering PMs or email. Does anyone know anything? Is anyone able to check on her in person? Has anyone else heard anything?

I'm very worried about her. I don't know what to do.

[Jamie D]

I hope she is okay.  Many of us need a break now and then.  All this can be overwhelming.  That why it is important to "let it out" from time to time.

If you check in Jessica, let me say you are breath of fresh air!  Your presence here is greatly appreciated.

[Gina Taylor]

I really hope that nothing serious has happened to Jessica, my BFF. It's been a while since i've heard from her.

I know that Robin Mack lives the closet to her, and if she could check on her to see if she's all right it would be a good for all of us. If someone could contact Robin, that would be a great weight off of our shoulders.

[Claire (formerly Magdalena)]

I sent a PM to Robin. The longer this goes the more worried I get... 

[Jamie D]

I sent a PM to Robin. The longer this goes the more worried I get... 

Believe me, I know the feeling.  Any time a friend goes missing I get alarmed, especially if I had an inkling they were suicidal.

[Claire (formerly Magdalena)]

I didn't think she was. The previous PM said she was feeling down about the future, but she's normally to bright and cheery. It didn't occur to me that it could be a precursor to her doing something.

[Ms Grace]

Be well Jessica. Please let us know you are OK... 

[Gina Taylor]

I didn't think she was. The previous PM said she was feeling down about the future, but she's normally to bright and cheery. It didn't occur to me that it could be a precursor to her doing something.

I agree. I started PMing her almost from day one, and she was always in a good mood. Then when she wa staken off HRT for a little while her spirits went down, but then she was put back on them and I know that her spirits were right back up there, but the only thing that I do know that really keeps her down is teh way that she looks. She doesn't quite feel beautiful enough, even though I encourage her all the time with ways to make herself look beautiful. I do know that her daughter won't speak to her and she's on egg shells with her son because of the transition, but those things are to be expected???

[Jessica Merriman]

Hi. I am OK everyone. I just hit a rough patch and could not put my thoughts in a message. I didn't want to bring anyone down with my problems as we all have those. I have been questioning almost everything about my life and got really confused and frustrated. I got writer's block or something and could not communicate effectively enough to answer questions some of you sent me. Did not mean to worry anyone, but I guess it did. I apologize for the worry I might have caused. It was definitely the first time in my life I was speechless! As prepared and knowledgeable as I was with this whole process of transition I found myself in a weird state of being lost for a few days. Problems mounted, therapy hit another wrinkle and other things happened which I suppose temporarily blew a fuse or something. Again, I am very sorry for the worry. Thanks for caring! 

[LordKAT]

ahoy! The princess is back in her castle!


Glad you are OK, though it sounds like you still have things to work out.

[Ms Grace]

No need to apologise, life get bumpy enough without trans* matters thrown into the mix. Glad to hear you're OK.

[MadeleineG]

I'm breathing a serious sigh of relief. Thank you for hitting post.

Btw, excruciating temporary inability to communicate? I totally get it. 

[Sammy]

Jess, if You wanna talk to someone, You do please remember that You can drop me PM anytime. You might be surprised but "As prepared and knowledgeable as I was with this whole process of transition I found myself in a weird state of being lost for a few days. Problems mounted, therapy hit another wrinkle and other things happened which I suppose temporarily blew a fuse or something." this ir very typical. And believe me (it comes from the first hand experience) - when those days happen, an impartial perspective does help. I call them now "monthly hormone cycles"...
Be safe!

[Gina Taylor]

Hi. I am OK everyone. I just hit a rough patch and could not put my thoughts in a message. I didn't want to bring anyone down with my problems as we all have those. I have been questioning almost everything about my life and got really confused and frustrated. I got writer's block or something and could not communicate effectively enough to answer questions some of you sent me. Did not mean to worry anyone, but I guess it did. I apologize for the worry I might have caused. It was definitely the first time in my life I was speechless! As prepared and knowledgeable as I was with this whole process of transition I found myself in a weird state of being lost for a few days. Problems mounted, therapy hit another wrinkle and other things happened which I suppose temporarily blew a fuse or something. Again, I am very sorry for the worry. Thanks for caring! 

Really glad to hear that things are all right with you Jessica, and that things will get better! PM me soon okay BFF. Love ya sister

[Claire (formerly Magdalena)]

So glad you're okay. 

[Ms. OBrien CVT]

Welcome home, Jessica. 

[Jamie D]

We all have rough patches, Jessica.  What you have found out through this is there are many people who care and are concerned about you.

[Devlyn]

Hi. I am OK everyone. I just hit a rough patch and could not put my thoughts in a message. I didn't want to bring anyone down with my problems as we all have those. I have been questioning almost everything about my life and got really confused and frustrated. I got writer's block or something and could not communicate effectively enough to answer questions some of you sent me. Did not mean to worry anyone, but I guess it did. I apologize for the worry I might have caused. It was definitely the first time in my life I was speechless! As prepared and knowledgeable as I was with this whole process of transition I found myself in a weird state of being lost for a few days. Problems mounted, therapy hit another wrinkle and other things happened which I suppose temporarily blew a fuse or something. Again, I am very sorry for the worry. Thanks for caring! 

Hon, if you or anyone else here gets to that writers block thingy stage, just type "help" and post it or send it to someone. We'll take it from there. Hugs, Devlyn

[LordKAT]

Hon, if you or anyone else here gets to that writers block thingy stage, just type "help" and post it or send it to someone. We'll take it from there. Hugs, Devlyn

I did something like this. I sent a PM saying 'call me' cause I was in a bad place. Well, they called almost immediately and that was enough to improve things from the gutter to the grimy street. I fudged why I called knowing they had worse than me to deal with but it meant the world. It isn't a bad thing to reach out.