My brother I can totally get what you are saying. I was a huge student of the bible and current events. I studied end times prophecy and understood it so well I was asked to teach several classes on it. When the May tornadoes hit Moore, Okla. I was one of the first to start unloading trucks, putting up disaster tents, delivering supplies and tracking upcoming weather trends. I worked every day for three months in the Oklahoma heat in disaster areas, at the church and where ever needed. Guess what? The admiration of my work, knowledge and volunteer help was stopped when they heard of my transition plans. All of the people who I called friends shunned me, I was damned to hell by the pastor and no one came to help me when my own house was hit later by another storm. Kind of hard to feel the Christian spirit after that. I have all but lost any faith I used to have. I look at it this way though, they will all be judged some day for their actions by someone greater than me. I feel for you and know first hand how you feel. PM me anytime you need to talk, I will be here. Take care Trenton! 🙂
