*hug*
I know the feeling. When I finally affirmed the woman within me, patience has been hard to come by. Where before I had been able to keep my dysphoria buried, now it has jumped out into the foreground. I only came out to myself in August, and am still impatiently waiting for my endo appointment in January. In order to feel like I'm making progress, I've been working hard on electrolysis and spending time presenting as female whenever possible.
I'm hoping I'll be distracted through the Holidays by family and activities. Meanwhile I've found that having an all-female (presenting and out) profile on Facebook where I interact with the world with my real face. And, of course, there is Susan's, which is a huge help. I hope, if you haven't explored the Facebook option (only inviting those friends to whom you are out, and setting your privacy settings to where only friends and not friends of friends can see your posts) might help pass the time while you wait for your body to catch up.
Oh, and there is clothes-shopping. Finding a CIS female friend or two and hitting thrift stores looking for age and status appropriate clothing is a huge help. I now have a closet full, and could probably go to work now for about a week without repeating too many items... of course, that's not enough, so there is more shopping in the future.
Shoes, too, are a big concern, and well worth shopping for.
I guess my suggestion is to work on the things you *can* work on while waiting for HRT... it has been helpful for me.
*hug*
