Feeling homesick at home?

[Jasriella]

To start off, I don't follow any religion. I was never pressured to be Christian my parents raised me to make my own decision if I wanted to go to church, they don't either. I've done my own research in theology and I just cannot follow a single faith.

I'm very spiritual, but I don't believe in just one faith it's like a combination of what feels right. I pretty much lean towards the therian/otherkin beliefs and Pagan/Wicca.

Well for many years I've been plagued by this feeling of being homesick while in my own home. Like pretty much no matter where I have lived nowhere feels like home, and sometimes like now the feeling of being trapped comes along with it. Not like I'm trapped in a well and helpless lol, but trapped by the people and stuff going on around me.

I think the trapped feeling comes from not getting anywhere in life lately and the wait to get out of the military. I don't want out, I love it and the family I serve with, but I need to be able to be me and the military won't allow that.

The homesick feeling though, I don't understand it. I have a place to live but it's not home to me and I can't find home. I don't know, and it's starting to really bother me again.

[Lauren5]

I understand you completely. Growing up in the military, I lived in 8 different houses in 8 different towns, and now two different rooms in two different buildings on the same campus. I've never felt at home, ever. I've had houses, but never a home. And I do have that feeling of homesickness, like I want to find that somewhere I belong. I don't know if I ever will, though.

[MaddieShirey]

I think I can relate. I have a home, a beautiful family, and a nice warm bed to go home to every night. Lately though I've been almost sad to go there. My doctor says it's largely due to my not being able to "let my hair down" at home. Everyone needs a place where they can be themselves. To take off that mask that society makes us wear and just be us. That, to me, is home. In that context, I could certainly see why you would long for it. I know I certainly do.

[Jasriella]

I think I can relate. I have a home, a beautiful family, and a nice warm bed to go home to every night. Lately though I've been almost sad to go there. My doctor says it's largely due to my not being able to "let my hair down" at home. Everyone needs a place where they can be themselves. To take off that mask that society makes us wear and just be us. That, to me, is home. In that context, I could certainly see why you would long for it. I know I certainly do.

I hadn't thought about it that way. The closest I ever felt to feeling at home was the week my roommate was gone and I explored my femininity for the first time.

[Jamie D]

Jasriella, there is the family you are born with, and there is the family that adopts one another.

Surround yourself with those who love and appreciate you.

Best wishes to you during this holiday season.   

[Del]

I realize you do not follow any given religion but I would like to add another possible reason I have encountered as well as friends of mine have noticed. It is not the typical answer along the lines of one being transsexual but rather deals with how we are made.

We are comprised of body, soul and spirit. The spirit seeks the things of God while the brain seeks the things of man, or this world. Most only recognize the feelings of the brain.

According to the word of God the spirit of man seeks the things of man and the brain the things of this world as well.

I mention this as Paul wrote grieve not the Holy Spirit of God. The Spirit that tries to guide us to God and point out that which is wrong. The Spirit that makes us feel good when we are in the will of God.

The reason I say all of this is because I know of many people who have felt homesick all of their lives. they felt terrible until they heard the gospel. Not the watered down words of man but the spiritually discerned word of truth which glorifies Jesus. Once they heard that they felt more at ease knowing in their spirit that they have a home in the heavens and the homesick feeling is because they long to be with the Lord.

I personally have this. I would rather be with the Lord than here. This world has nothing to offer me that could ever compare with one second of the presence of the Lord. To feel the touch of his Spirit means more than anything. Therefore every time I go to church that feeling leaves for the duration of that time and the reassurance given in those services make life worth living throughout the week until the next service.

I don't expect many to agree but this is something I have noticed. Even though you are not of any given faith or religion it might be worthwhile considering. Your spirit may just long for some things you don't even know exist yet.

Take care and may God bless.

[Cindy]

It is a very normal feeling for woman to want a home. Not a house not a place to live but a home. If you will, a nest.  It is a very normal biological urge.

One of the most basic female fantasies is to have a home. There is nothing sexual in it, there is no desire beyond a woman wanting her safe place, her home.

It is something many of us desire.

[Jasriella]

It is a very normal feeling for woman to want a home. Not a house not a place to live but a home. If you will, a nest.  It is a very normal biological urge.

One of the most basic female fantasies is to have a home. There is nothing sexual in it, there is no desire beyond a woman wanting her safe place, her home.

It is something many of us desire.

That's definitely a nice feeling, kind've like a little self reassurance, if that's the case knowing I've had some basic woman instincts all along.