What made you unhappy today? v4.0

[Keaira]

Off up to Muncie until tomorrow night. I don't wan to go but it's the "Family christmas party" tomorrow. I use the term "Family" loosely because when I go back there I'm called by my old name and pronouns. And I can't take it anymore. So it's the last time. In fact, I think tomorrow I'll take a trip into town and spend all day reading a book or something.

[Lauren5]

Off up to Muncie until tomorrow night. I don't wan to go but it's the "Family christmas party" tomorrow. I use the term "Family" loosely because when I go back there I'm called by my old name and pronouns. And I can't take it anymore. So it's the last time. In fact, I think tomorrow I'll take a trip into town and spend all day reading a book or something.

If you're clearly presenting as Keaira, then there's no excuse. I Give my family a reprieve since I'm still presenting as him, because they're "not ready" to meet Willow.
It's good to give yourself some me time, I've been contemplating running off to the bookstore to get a new book and a coffee, but I have no money.
Be safe, be sane. And most of all,  try to be happy

[King Malachite]

I went to church practice for the kids today in order to avoid going with my mother to go clean up my sister's house.  As it turns out, she never went and plans to go another time (probably when I'm around) because my brother in law's sister was there.  My mother decides it's a great idea to clean up my room.  I hate when she does that because when that happens, things I need get thrown away and I can't find anything and I get so stressed out and I'm sure my blood pressure rises..  In a way, I feel like she does this to get back at me because this isn't the first time.   I honestly would have been more appreciative if she washed the dishes instead, but no, the dirty dishes were still there so I had to wash them.

When I first came into my room and noticed it was "organized", my immediate response was to look in the trash can to see what she deemed as "trash" to be thrown away and guess what I find?  A dollar sitting at the top............yeah, I may need to get on that blood pressure medicine real soon lol.  I am SO glad that I put my packer up since my nephew was over yesterday because I can tell she was in the area where I usually have it.


And while I was typing this, my father called to tell me that he got locked up for DUI.  He's out now, but he can't drive until October, which means he won't be taking me practicing anytime soon so I'm pretty much on my own to try for my license, bar my sister helping me when she can.

[AdamMLP]

No room for underwear? Odd.

I have a habit of calling where ever I sleep, home. It only takes a couple days for me to do that as a rule. This included when I was sleeping in the parking lot at work.

I don't think there is a break  from gender issues as your body goes with you everywhere. I'm sorry you are with people who can't seem to transition with you.

It was full of Christmas presents, a pair of trousers, a couple of t-shirts and my onesies to try and keep my warm whilst I'm at my parent's house with no heating.  I knew I had my old female underwear here so I thought I'd be okay, but I forgot how demoralising it is to go back to that.  I had less than 5 minutes to get out and to my taxi as well, most of that was spent trying to find my padlock for my wardrobe.

I call work home because I'm living there but it seems to offend my family.  No one else calls work home because they've got their parents houses to go back to after the end of the year, but I'm moving halfway across the country then, so I technically have no where.

I thought I'd let less of my assigned sex shoved in my face here as I'm away from my shared female room and stuff.  Most of the time I used to be able to forget I'm not physically okay when I lived here, now my dysphoria's not so forgiving.

[Lauren5]

Dad wants to go to the beach on Christmas. I don't feel comfortable with that, because I don't know what I'd wear. I need something to cover my top. He should know how I feel about that, now that he's in the loop. My dysphoria is worse than ever, I've not been without a shirt in public since going to the beach once last summer. I could stand it for an hour on a day off.
Really, he's become more of a drag than support lately.

[LordKAT]

Fathers don't read minds any more than kids do. Tell your father it bothers you or wear a T shirt and say the sun bothers you somehow.

[CalmRage]

I've been feeling great all day and what is the only thing to make me even remotely unhappy?

I have somehow misplaced all my guitar picks. It takes talent to misplace all of them. What kind of talent i don't know, maybe a talent for misplacing things.

[Devlyn]

Hmmm, I'm The Finder of Things, I have no idea what it takes to misplace the stuff. Not my department. Haven't found your picks yet, either.

[CalmRage]

"uses jedi mind trick" You will get me some new ones, some really nice Fender ones since my whole equipment these days is Fender. Oh and medium strength please.

[Miss_Bungle1991]

Hmmm, I'm The Finder of Things, I have no idea what it takes to misplace the stuff. Not my department. Haven't found your picks yet, either.

Then come find my SD card. I bought one and put it in the little plastic sleeve thing after I loaded stuff onto it. THEN I put that plastic sleeve (with the card encased) into the large carton that it came in. I put it away for "safe keeping" so it wouldn't get damaged when I needed it. Well, it's in a safe place, all right. So safe that I haven't been able to find it for the last month.

[Shantel]

The pretty little high school girl in Colorado who was shot in the head has just died. I wish these lunatics would do us all a favor and leave other people alone and just take themselves out at home.

[Devlyn]

[Miss_Bungle1991]

The pretty little high school girl in Colorado who was shot in the head has just died. I wish these lunatics would do us all a favor and leave other people alone and just take themselves out at home.

I think the reason they do it in the manner that they do is for that final bit of infamy. Then once they take themselves out, they get their 15 minutes of fame. (Even if it is in death.) I don't know....it's completely insane, in my opinion.

[Devlyn]

"uses jedi mind trick" You will get me some new ones, some really nice Fender ones since my whole equipment these days is Fender. Oh and medium strength please.

I will get you some new ones, really nice Fender ones. Medium strength of course. 

<mindlessly walking out in front of steamroller>

[Miss_Bungle1991]

Off up to Muncie until tomorrow night. I don't wan to go but it's the "Family christmas party" tomorrow. I use the term "Family" loosely because when I go back there I'm called by my old name and pronouns. And I can't take it anymore. So it's the last time. In fact, I think tomorrow I'll take a trip into town and spend all day reading a book or something.

Honestly, going by your new pic. What you got going on with how you look there, I sure as hell don't see a guy. I know how friggin stubborn families can be (I've been there in the past) but if they can't see the girl I see there in that pic then they need to see an eye doctor NOW!! Or a therapist...or something. You look REALLY good in that pic, by the way. Meeeeeow. 

[Shantel]

I think the reason they do it in the manner that they do is for that final bit of infamy. Then once they take themselves out, they get their 15 minutes of fame. (Even if it is in death.) I don't know....it's completely insane, in my opinion.

Unfortunately the parents and other people see signs that these people are about to run amok and don't do anything to put a shunt in their activities. The mother of the shooter in Newton had even bought her mentally disturbed kid the guns. Both parents of the Columbine shooters were psychiatrists and paid no attention to what mischief their kids were up to. It's pretty frustrating to see such parental irresponsibility and failure to step up to the plate and deal with the problems before it turns critical.

[Jill F]

I've been feeling great all day and what is the only thing to make me even remotely unhappy?

I have somehow misplaced all my guitar picks. It takes talent to misplace all of them. What kind of talent i don't know, maybe a talent for misplacing things.

And this is why I buy in bulk and have them all over the house and in my purse.  I have a special jar for the special picks that are not to be handled. OK, I admit to using Yngwie Malmsteen's, but it somehow did not increase my picking speed one bit.

Use a coin like Brian May?

I'll have to say that reading some peoples' posts here made me most unhappy today.   Some heartbreaking, some hurtful- perhaps intentionally.

[Miss_Bungle1991]

Unfortunately the parents and other people see signs that these people are about to run amok and don't do anything to put a shunt in their activities. The mother of the shooter in Newton had even bought her mentally disturbed kid the guns. Both parents of the Columbine shooters were psychiatrists and paid no attention to what mischief their kids were up to. It's pretty frustrating to see such parental irresponsibility and failure to step up to the plate and deal with the problems before it turns critical.

True.

But think about how blind so many parents are to sooo many things when it comes to their kids? Hell, just look at how many of us threw out hint after hint in the hopes that someone would pick up on it and they never did. They all thought it was just a "phase"?

[MadeleineG]

But think about how blind so many parents are to sooo many things when it comes to their kids? Hell, just look at how many of us threw out hint after hint in the hopes that someone would pick up on it and they never did. They all thought it was just a "phase"?

How true!! I spent years convinced that my parents and I were living an unspoken agreement not to discuss it. Turns out, they were just frikking clueless.

[LordKAT]

How true!! I spent years convinced that my parents and I were living an unspoken agreement not to discuss it. Turns out, they were just frikking clueless.

I went through this thought, and few others,

One is that I was an alien like superman. the day would come when I would be appreciated and acknowledge as the guy I am and be a hero. Then I grew up a bit. Then there was the must be adopted cause this family is nothing like me, all girls but my dad. They must be kinda blind and deaf. I felt I was screaming out loud and they just acted all deaf.  so many things I dreamt up to explain things, and it was never quite what I imagined. Instead of being super special, I'm just another one like me.  Time for a new thread I think.