What made you unhappy today? v4.0

[Emo]

Hating my body, my face, my hair, my body hair, and most of all, myself.

Well then im going to love you. *hugs*

[Lauren5]

Well then im going to love you. *hugs*

Makes you the only one. I don't deserve myself if I can't live myself. I'm a waste of air, space, time, and money.

[Sarah Rose]

Makes you the only one. I don't deserve myself if I can't live myself. I'm a waste of air, space, time, and money.

nonsense, you are a wonderful person.... I know it can be hard to see at times, I've struggled with it myself.
There are people that love you, and support you.. even if you are having issues finding these people around you.

Things can only get better if you push on... push on hun.

[LordKAT]

Makes you the only one. I don't deserve myself if I can't live myself. I'm a waste of air, space, time, and money.

You do deserve to have a life and live it happily. Rough journey ahead but it is doable. Meanwhile, more hugs. You can get past this, you have friends here.

[Lauren5]

You do deserve to have a life and live it happily. Rough journey ahead but it is doable. Meanwhile, more hugs. You can get past this, you have friends here.

I feel like I'm at the end of the line. Nothing left for me.
Nothing is quick and painless, my stupid body will find a way to survive whatever I throw at it.

[Emo]

Patience.

[Lauren5]

Patience.

It's all gone, used it all up. 19 years worth.

[Emo]

It's all gone, used it all up. 19 years worth.

Dont give up.

[Jamie D]

Makes you the only one. I don't deserve myself if I can't live myself. I'm a waste of air, space, time, and money.

Cut it out!  If you were a waste, I would not have replied.

[V M]

Cut it out!  If you were a waste, I would not have replied.

+1

I understand you are feeling down Willow, sometimes often I feel rather down also but I'm old, tired and dealing with a variety of severe injuries

There are several people including myself who love and care about you and you are much to young to throw it all away

DON'T GIVE UP

Hugs

V M

[Lauren5]

Cut it out!  If you were a waste, I would not have replied.

People talk with others who are total wastes all the time. I'm not special of that group.

+1

I understand you are feeling down Willow, sometimes often I feel rather down also but I'm old, tired and dealing with a variety of severe injuries

There are several people including myself who love and care about you and you are much to young to throw it all away

DON'T GIVE UP

Hugs

V M

A little late for that. Only 19 years and I've made some life destroying mistakes. I've lost my mother and sister. I've lost some of my friends. I've lost time, I'm just wasting away, waiting for the day I'm taken away. With my horrid luck that won't be until I've suffered for an eternity.

[Adam (birkin)]

omg I am a dumbass. -_-

My brother has a friend who sometimes mentions to others that I'm trans (not appreciated, because I even spoke with him about it). So one of these girls who was told came to visit, and I don't think she picked up on me being trans. She just was like "wow...you're way shorter than your brother" and was surprised that I was the older one as well. So, I guess maybe she didn't make the connection that I was the transgender one. But I let the laptop fall asleep with Susan's pulled up, and they borrowed it to order pizza while I was napping. So my carelessness eradicated any doubt she may have had. If I'm going to be stealth in the future, I will have to be more conscientious of this stuff.

[Emo]

Willow.
Life goes on.
It continues.
And you drift along the waves of remorse as you continue to dream of other realities that are not possible.
Focus on the here and now.
Find your niche in this world.
Everyone has one.
Give yourself some credit.
You made it this far.
Are you going to let it go to waste?
Because if you do give up, everything you have been through WILL be a waste.

[brianna1016]

Having to explain to the doctor that "no I didn't give birth to my daughter" and "yes I am her biological father" and then getting dirty looks from both of the nurses in the room who went out of their way to refer to me as "your daddy" when they were talking to my daughter even though they clearly heard her call me "mommy"
On the bright side though, I'm passing with flying colors! That's the 2nd doctor who has asked me about "the pregnancy" .

[Jamie D]

People talk with others who are total wastes all the time. I'm not special of that group.

But I'm not just "people."  And I see great potential in you.

[Lauren5]

But I'm not just "people."  And I see great potential in you.

I wish I could just not care about myself and help those in need.
But I'm human and have to focus on myself. Which is hopeless.

[Jamie D]

Pffft!  How many teens have the chutzpah to come out as trans?  And start to live as the see themselves, before doing any hrt, hair removal, etc?

You know of Jordan on YouTube (minorqback)?  She was on hormones for almost a year, and not transitioned, before she came out.

[Lauren5]

Pffft!  How many teens have the chutzpah to come out as trans?  And start to live as the see themselves, before doing any hrt, hair removal, etc?
You know of Jordan on YouTube (minorqback)?  She was on hormones for almost a year, and not transitioned, before she came out.

I feel like I need to revert to do these things. But I can't. I'm just stuck in the middle.

I don't have the money to do those things anyways.
Reminds me, I need to do laundry, I've worn my small assortment of clothes for too many days in a row.

[Jamie D]

I feel like I need to revert to do these things. But I can't. I'm just stuck in the middle.

I don't have the money to do those things anyways.
Reminds me, I need to do laundry, I've worn my small assortment of clothes for too many days in a row.

Nope, you are not "stuck."  You just don't have the inertia to move yet.

If you feel like you need to do something, then take a deep breath and a step back.  There is no shame in that whatsoever.

[Lauren5]

Nope, you are not "stuck."  You just don't have the inertia to move yet.

If you feel like you need to do something, then take a deep breath and a step back.  There is no shame in that whatsoever.

Inertia, meaning finances.

I don't want to, but I feel as if I need to.
And there is shame, what of my small classes where everyone knows my face? I can't just revert in those. And of course, every day I have class I have a small class as well.