being who I want to be (happy post from a normally cranky user ;)

[Miyah48]

I want to be me. That's the thought that has been going through my mind. I don't want to be 30 depressed and living a lie. I've been through to much s*** in my life to not be happy now. I'm clean from all drugs including alcohol. I have a sponsor. My mom trusts me more. My meds are in a good place, then its just this one thing. I like knowing that one day i could be a female. one day I could go out in a pretty skirt or go by the pool in a cute bikini. Date males as a woman.

I'm a very logical person. I'm not usually emotional. but this makes me emotional. So i decided to bring in emotions and logic together in a symphony that helped me today.

so what do i like about being a male. When I thought about this I just looked at the wall for like 30 minutes so i decided.....

1. nothing

why do I want to be a female?

Because I hate having male genitals. I HATE IT. I want to take a shower and not feel sad.
I want to have the normal girl puberty experience.
I want to wear the clothes.
I want to pee out of a vagina
I want to wear the clothes
I want to have the normal female high school experience
I want a boyfriend that thinks im a beautiful girl
I want to have sex as a girl
I dont want all this icky testosterone
I want to go to a nail salon and paint my nails in beautiful colors.
I want to wear make up.
I want to be girly and not have males tell me to stop being a sissy
I want to be happy

so these are my reasons and the only thing stopping me is coming out. I know its going to be a hard ride. I know its going to be difficult. But I know that one day im not going to be a transgender female just a FEMALE. This was such a great realization and makes me quite happy. Im going to come out tomorrow. Wish me luck. Btw do you think these are good reasons? I think theyre great reasons.
And it confirms for me that I am transsexual.

What are your reasons for wanting to be female or transitioning?

[Miyah48]

BIIIIGGGG UPDATE. I talked to my parents about it. they werent surprised or shocked. They just looked at me like it was no big deal and said we'll take you to a gender therapist. YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS omg omg omg. I feel amazing because they reacted calm and normally. no biggie I love my mom.

[Ms Grace]

Congrats Henrietta, great to have supportive parents! Sounds like they saw it coming.

Sorry, this just caught my attention and got me thinking....do post-op girls pee from their vagina or is it separated like ciswomen?  Probably a silly question.

Silly? Not really. I've been wondering the same thing.

From Wikipedia...

In anatomy, the urethra (from Greek οὐρήθρα - ourethra) is a tube that connects the urinary bladder to the genitals for the removal of fluids from the body. In males, the urethra travels through the penis, and carries semen as well as urine. In female placental mammals, the urethra is shorter and emerges above the vaginal opening.

Given that in M2F SRS the penis is inverted to construct the vaginal canal (yes??) then I'm not sure what they do to create a female urethra...

(And isn't there a "joke" about God being an architect, designing a toilet in the middle of a playground?)

[evecrook]

I think we need Dr. who to answer this quetion

[kellibra]

congrats henrietta! what a relief it must be for you.
reading your list of reasons, there are so many i can relate to...
if you can do it, go for it!