JoAnn and I are both managing well now. She's not kicking me out, but letting me walk away, and with that we'll part as friends. She said it would have been far easier for everyone, including her if I had understood my problem, and if I had started this transition before we got married. Mostly because our wedding wouldn't have happened. I'm moving out on Jan 17th and she's happy with it. She knows I'm going to be growing again by living on my own, even if it means she also has to start a new life. A divorce is at least 8 months, or maybe more than a year off, but in that time we'll be free of the stress. She's never liked watching me change, as I ignored all her advice and comments. So now she doesn't have to worry about it.
While cleaning out wastebaskets to go into the garbage this morning JoAnn asked if I noticed how much hair she's lost and had thrown into her wastbasket since November when I came back to California. Yea, she's kind of glad I'm going, and wants me to know how much stress I've caused her. Oh yes, I already knew.
This is just an update. We aren't ready to kill each other, and we're not sulking or depressed. And there's no need to reply.
If you read this, thanks. If not. I guess there's no reason to believe you're seeing this sentence.
