Feelin' hopeless

[LilLivvy91]

Ok, so im no mental health professional, but i can say without a doubt i am more woman than man emotionally. I want to transition eventually and hopefully before im 30. Whats holding me back is the fact that:

A:) ive already eatablished quite a masculine persona to my friends and family.

And

B:) im big (5'10" around 250 lbs with size 12 mens shoe) & hairy. Im riddiculed as a man for having massive amounts of thick and black body hair, go figure. None f the other males in my immediate family have overtly masculine biology traits or body hair. Why was i, the only transgender soul born in, cursed with this? I hate it, always have. I mean i am literally covered from head to toe in hair. Back, chest, upper and lower arms, shoulders, thighs and legs, and feet. I feel that there is no hope of being rid of it. Even with electrolosys or laser, the mass amounts would entail countless hours of treatment not to mention the financial burden.

Im just asking if any of you ladies have similar experiences and how did you cope with it?

[Devlyn]

You take a bunch of little steps. And you come to terms with being a larger lady. They're out there, just look around. You're young and have an opportunity to live the balance of your life the way you want. Now get going! Hugs, Devlyn

[Ms Grace]

Livvy, I can assure you there are many others in the exact same or very similar predicament. Most, if not all of us ladies born with the wrong set of chromosomes have to deal with the rampant effects of testosterone in one way or another. I used to be quite hairy in my early 20s before my first tilt at HRT, believe me HRT and waxing/electrolysis/laser will deal with a lot of it. I suggest you check out the Before & After thread to see the stunning transformations for the girls there as they've moved through their transition. The other thing is, your persona is your own to mould...you do that as you please, for yourself, and no one else owns that...you are your own person, not beholden to any one else's perception of you.

[LilLivvy91]

Thanks girls! Really insightful. I see now after viewing the before and after thread that truly anything is possible... It takes dedication, sacrifice, and nobility.... Not to mention a heapin' helpin' of self confidence. If you are confident with your gender expression, others will see you as your target gender. Im dreadding it but after seeing that thread, im hopeful that eventually if i put 100% dedication into it i can become the beautiful woman i was destined to be. I know it sounds cliche, but what doesn't these days!? Im really not to worried about the "big girl" part because there were several larger bio-males on there that turned out to be petite, gorgeous ladies! Hair removal will prove to be a challenge, but i learned that with anti-androgens and potentially an orchidotomy (which im highly considering) it will dissipate over time. The women in my family are typically voluptuous ladies. So hopefully i will have the same results. I have a new outlook on myself after today thanks to you all. God Bless you!

[Jill F]

Don't worry.  I used to be umm, quite rotund and hairy in all the wrong places.  A few months of HRT and a good waxing took care of the hair.  Weight can be lost easily if you are properly motivated to do so.   

[JoanneB]

Hmmm Let me count the TG ironies of my life.....

1)Feeling like I should have been a girl, in a first generation American family in a very blue collar and religious city
2)Becoming obese by age 12
3)Going bald at age 16
4)Towering over classmates in high school
5)Responsible for my ex's first orgasm
6)Scuba-Pro has declared my feet as "Super Extra Large"
7) My Favorite "You are not like other guys....." from my ex's long before they became that
8)Ear Hair... Apparently the only place it prefers to grow on my body
And plenty more I won't bore you all with

Most "I can't...." are fairly easy to fix. Baby steps with little pressure placed upon yourself is best. Shoot for the easy ones first. AKA the low hanging fruit. There is a fix for everything. Aint technology wonderfull. Hell, in another 172 years I'll reach my goal height of 5'6" thanks to ravages of gravity on this biped. The rest can be overcome with increased self esteem, self acceptance and attitude. All of which takes hard work, but well worth it.

BTW - It may be me but even Robin Williams isn't as fuzzy as he once was, aka Wookiee

[Carrie Liz]

One of my best trans friends, Arianna, had many similar problems. She was completely covered in thick black hair, had huge problems with hair shadows when she was first starting, plus she's 6'2" tall, overweight, wears a size-13 shoe, and has a deep voice.

After only 2 years on hormones, she was passing almost perfectly, she had her SRS in the summer of 2009, and is now living pretty much in stealth. You'll be surprised just how much hormones and a long haircut can change you, especially if you're young. And HRT does help with the hair. Arianna still has quite a bit of it, but it's softened now, so it's not really as noticeable. She just looks like a woman with really coarse leg hair.

Also, losing weight isn't that difficult. I was 270 lbs when I started hormones. I went on the paleo diet, and I dropped all the way to 230 after only about 3 months. Now I'm down to 220, even after months and months of cheating.

This is all quite possible. No matter how male you may think your starting position is. I think you'll be surprised how many people end up passing and in stealth who never thought it was even remotely possible.