I wish I had a sister

[FalseHybridPrincess]

You know sometimes I cant help it but feel this way...

How Id love to have a big sister that I could look up to and admire
or a little sister that I would take care of and protect
or a sister of the same age , we could do everything together and help each other out

I feel like if I had one my feelings regarding my gender would be so much more easily realisable , that Id be able to come in terms with the girl inside me thanks to her...

But all I have in reality is a cruel and cold younger brother (im 19 he is 17) that doesnt do anything with me rather than playing leage of legends  and he is also not accepting of me , the other day we had a fight and he told my mom "teach your son some manners" and when he knows Im dressed as a girl he shuts himself in his room...he just really doesnt care...
And to be honest I dont know if care about him anymore...I used to, I mean when we were younger I had to protect him and be a model for him , and I tried, even though I was scared and didnt even wanted to...even though Id rather ask my boyfriend  to protect him from the bullies I did it all myself despite being so scared inside, but I could already tell ...he was much stronger than me...I remember when he first saw I had shaved my legs he had this extremely angry look on his face , and I just said whats the big deal even though I was trembling on the inside , the truth is I never wanted to annoy anyone...or be annoyed Ι just wanted to live in peace it took me a lot of time to realise that I cant live in peace if I keep myself inside a dark cage...anyway Im getting off topic here...
he grew up to become such a cold person...such a cold and distant person...

Im sure if I had a sister she wouldnt treat me like that, instead she would at least show me some love which I sure need...
Even though when I was a child my mother kept telling me how I need to have a male raw model all I wanted is to be loved by a female one...

Could it be that anyone feels the same?or has similar experiences

thank you , excuse my whining

[stephaniec]

You know sometimes I cant help it but feel this way...

How Id love to have a big sister that I could look up to and admire
or a little sister that I would take care of and protect
or a sister of the same age , we could do everything together and help each other out

I feel like if I had one my feelings regarding my gender would be so much more easily realisable , that Id be able to come in terms with the girl inside me thanks to her...

But all I have in reality is a cruel and cold younger brother (im 19 he is 17) that doesnt do anything with me rather than playing leage of legends  and he is also not accepting of me , the other day we had a fight and he told my mom "teach your son some manners" and when he knows Im dressed as a girl he shuts himself in his room...he just really doesnt care...
And to be honest I dont know if care about him anymore...I used to, I mean when we were younger I had to protect him and be a model for him , and I tried, even though I was scared and didnt even wanted to...even though Id rather ask my boyfriend  to protect him from the bullies I did it all myself despite being so scared inside, but I could already tell ...he was much stronger than me...I remember when he first saw I had shaved my legs he had this extremely angry look on his face , and I just said whats the big deal even though I was trembling on the inside , the truth is I never wanted to annoy anyone...or be annoyed Ι just wanted to live in peace it took me a lot of time to realise that I cant live in peace if I keep myself inside a dark cage...anyway Im getting off topic here...
he grew up to become such a cold person...such a cold and distant person...

Im sure if I had a sister she wouldnt treat me like that, instead she would at least show me some love which I sure need...
Even though when I was a child my mother kept telling me how I need to have a male raw model all I wanted is to be loved by a female one...

Could it be that anyone feels the same?or has similar experiences

thank you , excuse my whining

I don't know if it's really any different some times. I have two sisters older and younger . It was great to be able to sneak clothes from them . The problem was that my sisters for some reason turned quite cold themselves by the time I reached high school and beyond, I don't even talk to them any more.

[Ms Grace]

I have one sister and one brother, both younger, and sure I love them but they can make life difficult sometimes. My sister and I are quite close, always have been but the teen years were hardest on our kinship. My brother and I, not so close, teen years were also worst, almost to the point of estrangement. Maybe give your little bro time to adjust, you want a sister but maybe he doesn't. He's coming to terms with "losing" his big brother in the way a lot of teen boys cope with deep emotions, by becoming angry, withdrawn and surly.

Like I say, I got along well with my sister but wow, did she pick on my younger brother something fierce. And I see that with her kids, the daughter (the youngest) gets along well with her oldest brother but picks on the other brother despite the fact he's seven years older! A guy at my work has five sisters! And wow is he a grump! I think you'll find plenty of people (men and women) who say their sisters made their lives hell. As the saying goes, you can't choose your family!

[Ltl89]

I love my two sisters and wouldn't trade them for anything, but that's not to say it's been a bed of roses or that things are simple.  It's easy to idealize something when it's a fantasy.  In reality, having sisters is just like having brothers.  They can be lovely and they can be cold, sometimes both.  As the youngest sibling and only "boy", it wasn't always easy growing up with two older sisters and they have both annoyed me to no end at times (and likely will again in the future).  Also, gender doesn't equal acceptance.  You'll find plenty of accepting males and non-accepting females in your life.  It's all about the character of the individual and the circumstances that surround ones coming out.  Believe me, I realize how hard siblings can make things for one another, but at the end of the day they're family.  I'm glad to have my two older sisters despite the difficulties we have had at times, and I'm hoping you'll one day be able to say the same for your brother. 

[svaso]

I have three older sister's and as you can imagine, that does come with benefits.  I had times when I thought having a brother would be fun too, but I guess that might have turned out to be an obstacle.  Anyway, I adore my sister's and wouldn't change a thing.  I came out to my family this year and they have been awesome.  Now they are giving me hand me downs(I used to have to steal their clothes )!  They now reside in the fact that they never had a brother.

I will say it wasn't always fun and games.  My sister's had some pretty nasty fights and arguments when I was young, and I'm glad I wasn't part of them.  It was scary to see one whacking another over the head with a curling iron....ahhh youth.

[RosieD]

I've got three (younger) sisters so you are welcome to borrow one of mine anytime you like. Sisters don't make for shared experiences. When I told the lovely (cis-gendered) ladies at my beauty salon that me being a bitch was a survival strategy due to having three sisters I got nothing but the laughter and agreement.

Having sisters is lovely but believing it's all girls together is no less Disneyfied than believing there are really sharks who think fish are friends, not food.

Rosie.

[svaso]

me being a bitch was a survival strategy due to having three sisters

Haha...I can otherwise relate to this^

[Paulagirl]

I have a sister 4 years older. For many years we were friendly/distant. We saw each other on holidays, but never spoke on the phone.
I was visiting her last spring, and, while walking her dog, she asked me (firmly) what was wrong. It all spilled out. A lifetime of GD described in a run-on sentence. At that very second, I knew I had to transition, and that enough was enough.
Over the course of Therapy, Doctor's appts, and lots of crying and WTF moments, my sister became my rock. She held my hand literally or virtually as I began this strange journey. She treats me like the sister she never had. We have become best, inseperable friends, and see, text, or email each other every day.
My sister has let herself erase from memory the male persona I had. I am only female to her, and always was, and that is how our relationship works.
Big sister, mentor, Yoda, and advisor. These are things my sister is to me. The years we were distant are forgotten.

[FalseHybridPrincess]

Wow Paula that was really nice

I get what you guys saying , its up to the person yeah...

I just cant help it but feel this way

[BunnyBee]

A sister isn't necessarily going to automatically accept it.  Mine didn't.   i think it can be hard for anybody.   Some of my guys friends were much more accepting right from the get-go than my sister was.  She, like my brother, are slowly coming around, but it def wasn't perfect and fun.

[Megumi]

My sister is 3 years older than me. So far she has NOT taken me coming out well which is odd since she has always watched gay/lesbian films and shows and has watched many transgender medical shows on TV. But when I came out she suddenly became a bible thumping Christian, even though prior to that when anything Christian was mentioned she would be the first to make fun of religion. I had honestly expected her to be completely accepting of me since she had always been so open about being cool with "everyone" no matter what. From what my mom has said she feels threatened that I'm trying to be a better woman in every way than my sister ever could be and that could be a big part of it. Funny/sad thing for me is that she is adamant that if I were gay and stayed looking the way I do now everything would be all hunky dory. Right now she has said we will NEVER be seen in public together once I really start the transition process. Maybe it will all change in the months to come but right now the outlook is rather bleak at best.

[Ms Grace]

From what my mom has said she feels threatened that I'm trying to be a better woman in every way than my sister ever could be and that could be a big part of it.

Sisterly rivalry!

[mountainhun]

It could also be that your brother just still has not matured yet- and we know boys take longer to mature, right?

I had a very rough, almost adversarial relationship with my sisters for a few years.  It was them and my step-mother vs. my dad, and since I was a guy at the time I was lumped in with my father, unless they wanted me to do something for them. 

Eventually, the family got torn apart, and I went with my dad and my older sister went away and got married.  My younger step-sister went with her mother, so I don't get to talk to her very much, and she's not very enthusiastic when I do, but as for my older sister... Our relationship has gotten stronger than it has since we were kids.  She was the first person I came out to, and we have shared our experiences and forgiven our old mistakes.

So, be patient with your brother.  He's only 17, he is not anywhere near grown up yet, and if you are patient and don't give up on him, he may come around.  A lot of things can change.

[Azahara]

I always wished that I had a sister growing up...although coming out as trans I realized that a great part of that desire was a displacement of my own desire to be female.  I think having a big sister would've been absolutely wonderful in terms of coming out as trans and being able to talk with someone in my immediate family before coming out to my mother and father.  Well, now I'm happy to outwardly be the sister I've always known I was on the inside!

[LordKAT]

You can have mine, they are a bit used as I've had them for many years, but they are still worth something.

[Megumi]

Sisterly rivalry!

Hahaha it's so funny that I said the same thing during my session with my therapist today.

[Jessica Merriman]

On the bright side of things you now have around 4,000 sisters here. We can't steal your clothes either! We will be here for you. 

[Miyuki]

Before my brother was born I was secretly hoping he would be a girl. I was afraid that if he were a boy it would be hard for me to relate to him and we wouldn't get along very well. But as it turned out I needn't have worried, because he ended up being pretty feminine for a boy. He plays music and especially likes to sing, he wears girly clothes like skinny jeans pretty much every day, and he's bisexual. When I first told him I wanted to try dressing more like a girl, he actually let me borrow some of his clothes. It's funny, because he was always so much more comfortable expressing himself than I was, if any objective observer had been told one of us was transgender, they would have almost certainly assumed it was him. But he is actually very comfortable in a male identity, despite external appearances. Sometimes I do wonder what having an actual sister would have been like, but I don't really have any regrets about the way things turned out.