South of MY border depression

[Alex55]

I have been thinking about bottom surgery ALOT lately. I'm not sure why.  I have bad dysphoria, and looking at that part of me down south just depresses me.  I am fine while wearing my STP, but I had a doctors appointment not to long ago, he had to examine my leg and asked me to take off my pants but leave my underwear on.  I was wearing my STP, (I am 100% male and every single document I have says I am male) but the part that bothered me, and started me thinking about this, was that what if he see's it and questions me about it?  I know what I would say, I have a prosthetic, no big deal? But it would have made me feel awkward, and I am not sure if I could have handled that emotionally.  It sucks! I often wonder what if I was in an accident and was wearing my STP and was unconscious and they looked at my driver's license and looked at what I have down south and were baffled.  But, I would be unconscious and it would be a mute point then..hahaha duh. 

I wonder since I'm not the only one that hasn't had bottom surgery, how do you deal with stuff like that?  What would you say?  I would rather have a small dick (Meta) and be proud of it, than to have what I have now and hate it every time I think about it or look at it.  Or be worried that I might have to explain why I have a front hole and not a micro dick.
I must be thinking too hard, sorry I am mumbling.

On a different note:
Has anybody had a full hysterectomy/vaginal removal and Meta with Dr. Curtis Crane?  Just wondering what the recovery time would be.  I know I should just email him.

[Simon]

Only surgery I have had transition wise thus far is my hysto. My bottom dysphoria is minimal at this point, but my top dysphoria is off the charts. I deal with a lot of doctors (mainly Urologists) because I have kidney cancer due to a genetic condition. Constantly at the doctor's office I have to lift my shirt, or take it off for a EKG or Ultrasound (I have a heart murmur I get checked every year or so). To do that I have to take off my binder. It's embarrassing every time. It makes me feel like a freak show. How do I deal with it? I'm real with the docs. I tell them upfront if they're not aware from my charts that I am transgender, and have not had my SRS. I have never had a doctor make me feel uncomfortable after telling them (I have had maybe two rude nurses in the past). They're trained to be sensitive in various situations. To tell you the truth...they see a lot of stuff and they don't care what we are. They're just there to treat whatever we need treated at the time.

As far as recovery time for a Hysto (no idea about the vaginectomy) I felt fine after about two weeks. Mine was an open procedure but if you can have it laparoscopic or pulled through 'that area' then I would think the recovery time would be even shorter. I was able to go back to doing everything 100% at the typical six weeks.

[Declan.]

Alex55, you might consider getting a prosthetic that attaches with adhesive. It really looks real, IMO. Real enough that I don't think anyone would take a second look at it, and if they do, ask them point-blank why they're looking at it. Even if you got in a car accident, I can't imagine anyone would yank on your prosthetic to see if it's real or not.

My bottom dysphoria is minimal at this point, but my top dysphoria is off the charts.

Yeah, same here. My chest is a serious issue for me, but I don't care too much about what's between my legs. Maybe because I can't see what's down there unless I'm looking for it, so it doesn't matter much to me.

[sneakersjay]

Recovery from hysto was about 6 weeks.

Recovery from meta was about 6-8 weeks.

I had mine done separately.  Hysto recovery was easier, except the not lifting part.  Meta recovery was like I was hit by a Mack truck.  I'd guess 8 weeks minimum, and I usually bounce back from these things fairly easily (top surgery was a piece of cake, minus the lifting part).

And yes, having A dick, albeit a small one, is preferable to a hole and NO dick.  I can use a urinal, I can pee behind the tree, or in the snowbank.  Works for me.  LOL


Jay

[overdrive]

I have more bottom than top dysphoria and anything not realistic doesn't cut it for me but I'm not willing to go through with the surgery for now. I pretty much daily deal with the uncomfortable feeling that I have and try not to look down there. I have already picked out the color, etc for my Real Magik and cant wait to get it. The only thing holding me up right now is that I"m waiting for it to be an STP. For me anyways the cost isn't worth it for a prosthetic that can flop out of the way and leaves my female bits exposed. I need them to be safely covered up and no risk of "Surprise here we are!".  So I can understand where you're coming from as I think a ReelMagik with STP added would allow me to be more or less stealth, just not sure how much longer I will have to wait before they offer that  , though I will order the day I see it on their website.

I know there are others like Emsil that I hear is pretty good too but maybe a more realistic prosthetic attached with like someone said? For me personally there aren't any out there quite right, ReelMagik is the closest but maybe something will work for you better.

[Alex55]

Thanks for the replies.  I am feeling better today.  I have and STP (peecock) and it works great, though I keep wondering if I should invest in a reelmagik or emisil.  I know the emisil will not adhere to your body, but it looks great!  I LUV the reelmagik and I can buy it, but I would rather wait for an STP if that will ever happen.

Sneekersjay:  Thanks for the timeline on your surgeries, I usually bounce back too. My top surgery was a breeze.  I would like to get the bottom done by Dr. Crane but its the money issue and I may have to wait a bit longer.  Did you have any complications? Are you happy with the results/length etc..

[Declan.]

Thanks for the replies.  I am feeling better today.  I have and STP (peecock) and it works great, though I keep wondering if I should invest in a reelmagik or emisil.  I know the emisil will not adhere to your body, but it looks great!  I LUV the reelmagik and I can buy it, but I would rather wait for an STP if that will ever happen.

You can turn it into an STP.

https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php?topic=135757.0
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php?topic=139867.0

[overdrive]

Basic packer yes, because its constructed differently. I guess I wasn't clear in my post that I was referring to the Advanced with flex rod do that you get realism of everything all in a pack/play/STP that also stays in place better with a bottom tap. Not sure what the OP is specifically looking for but I thought the same type of thing, not sure though. But thanks for the links anyways just in case.

[aleon515]

Basic packer yes, because its constructed differently. I guess I wasn't clear in my post that I was referring to the Advanced with flex rod do that you get realism of everything all in a pack/play/STP that also stays in place better with a bottom tap. Not sure what the OP is specifically looking for but I thought the same type of thing, not sure though. But thanks for the links anyways just in case.

I agree, there might be something you don't know about re: the construction. The other thing when you heat a metal screwdriver it goes THRU cyberskin, it doesn't do anything at all with silicone. It's hard material to work with. Someone made a STP out of a basic packer from RM. Not sure how he did this, but this is $85 vs $500 or so. I think he did a little damage to it in the process.

--Jay