Satinjoy
Your story certainly resonates with me. Three factors have provided me with almost instant and complete respite from what I sensed was becoming a potentially fetishistic cross dressing compulsion/intense dysphoria - hrt, the emerging consensus that nature rather than nurture most likely caused me to be transgender and social media. Without hrt providing dysphoria relief, emotional richness and facilitating a truer and very much self authored expression of my identity (which is somewhere between mta and mtf) my marriage, key relationships and sanity would not have been sustained. I give thanks that the situation and medical profession/science that faced me in the 1970s no longer exists. HRT and improved understanding of brain science has helped me find peace and acceptance. Social media has helped find information, end isolation and gain a new sense of community and support. Living at this time has indeed been a blessing.