things on my mind

[Nora Kayte]

I've only just been to 1 therapist appointment so no hrt yet. But have discussed it a little and it is most likely the direction I will be going.

I posted about finger nails before and it is and will be very important to me. I've been having them done for 6 months now and for the first time the gel is starting to lift. Never thought them starting to lift would affect me like this. It freaked me out a little. It is like one of the only feminine things about me this early in my transition and I don't like the thought if them coming off.

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So I could not get an appointment today so I am going to have to wait till tomorrow. I will have to go with my wife which I did not want to do because she always says to get them shorter. But since I like going with her, I guess eventually she will just let me do what I want. So I think this time when and I get my toes to match, I'm going to do hot pink tips on the toes only. I always get my way, I just don't like her bitching about my decision.

Now when I go get waxed next week and I have some hot pink on my toes I may just tell my waxing girl about me. I wish. But you never know.

No hrt yet and some guys are attractive to me.

I went to target and bought a pink hoody and pink workout jacket/top. Almost tried them on. But now I have absolutely no problems shopping for womens clothing at all any more.

Really want to go to a transsexual support meeting tonight. If I tell my wife she will probably tell me I should go. Even then I am still scared.

Even though I posted before keeping my male parts does not present a problem. Recently they are disgusting me and I want them gone.

Woke up crying and not knowing why again yesterday. And thinking about men. And remember I am still press hrt and sexually attracted to my wife.

I just took a before pic of me in a corset and a skirt no head showing if coarse. I think my curves look OK for being pre hrt but too afraid to post the pic because of my shoulders.

There's more but I gotta go. Thanks for reading.

Norma Lynne

[Ms Grace]

You should go along to that meeting if you really want to - shouldn't be anything to be afraid of.

[Nora Kayte]

You should go along to that meeting if you really want to - shouldn't be anything to be afraid of.

I really wanted to. But my wife was sick. So I had to take care of her. And  that's the excuse I'm using this time. Its funny I am super shy. I have a hard time talking to people but I worked retail and talked to tons of people every day and everybody always said I was great with people. I could take the most pissed of person and make them a repeat customer. So go figure. I think I will email the contact person. It will put me at ease.

[Danielle Sherry]

I'm in the same place you are Norma - pre-everything but becoming more feminine every day (hair growing out, dieting hard, changing clothes, mascara etc). It's an odd place to be .. in between. Hang in there.

I wish I had a meeting to go to. Being in Korea I wouldn't understand the meeting even if I had one to go to.

Continued good luck!