So, I am taking care of my aging Dad, my aging dog(who is the love of my life), a job that is very overwhelming, A friend that calls me everyday, crying because things are hard and a job that is demanding of me more than I can give. I try to be a help, do my best, and I am overwhelmed. I also have a professional license I have hung on to for years. that I realize it's time to let go of. At my age, no one is going to hire me. It's hard to let go of it for 2 reasons. First, it is one of the hardest licenses there is to get and second, It's the one thing I have always been good at. But as I said, at my age and as long as I have been out of the field, I am kidding myself to think anyone would hire me. My old dog is what keeps me going. Because I am in a dead end life and a dead end job. And I am too old to be able to do much about it. And I will say, once this little four legged love of mine is gone....I could care less about anything.