I guess an update

[Bookworm]

First I would like to apologize for jumping around a lot. My mind just kind of does it.

It has been a while since I posted anything. Life has just been busy and I did not really feel like I had made any real progress, or at least nothing to really toot my own horn about. I guess though that I will make a post. I will admit that part of the reason I have not posted in a while was because it was a little depressing for me to be on the site. I mean that I have been jealous of some of the girls on the site, and while I hold no grudges against them in any way it just showed me how far I still have to go.

As for real updates. I have went to the store on many occasions and now own way more woman's underwear than I do guy's. I also went and bought not one, but two bras. I have some filler stuff that works alright (not breast forms). I am not sure when i will get to wear them, but hears hoping it is soon. I had been seeing a therapist and it was going alright, but as the new semester rolled around I just never signed back up. I felt like it just was not really going anywhere. I really want to start the transition, but I feel like I am at an impasse for many reason. I don't have a great deal of money, nor do i think my home life will really work. i have started using woman's deodorant and hair products.

Not really sure what else to talk about. I am still not really good with all of this.

[suzifrommd]

I mean that I have been jealous of some of the girls on the site, and while I hold no grudges against them in any way it just showed me how far I still have to go.

Oh, sweetie, I know how this feels.

It's an illusion, really. I promise it is. You are already as much of a woman as you will ever need to be. The rest is just presentation. Yes, we'd all like to present ourselves as a supermodel, or even as passable, but that really is just icing on the cake. You are already a beautiful woman inside and the trappings don't matter. As for major things like surgery and HRT, well they are "gender confirming". They may help you feel female, but they will not make you into the woman you want to be. You're already there.

I love that you're bringing in some feminine touches to your life. As someone who made the journey only recently, I really want to highlight how short it was. The differences between the way I present myself now (as a passable, full-time woman) and the way I presented myself on that first night I went out en femme, were very minor. A detail here, a tweak there. Although I did not realize it, by putting on those clothes and leaving the house, I was already 90+% there.

Please keep posting.

[Bookworm]

I know the small things count. I just am a little anxious. I have found in fact in the last week that my facial hair is finally starting to come in and while most of the men in my family can't grow a beard (mainly patchy, different colors throughout, or something else) the fact that it is there is really bothering me. I wish there was something I could do other than shave. I just don't have any idea what all I can do to stop the hair.

I did look into some other things that I can buy and wear under my male clothes and so far I have thought about getting a waist cincher. I was wondering if you had any ideas or if anybody had any ideas of things I could wear.

[suzifrommd]

Sorry, don't know much about waist cinchers (sounds REALLY uncomfortable).

I don't have much of a waist, but I don't think it's a problem for passability. GGs' waists vary so much, I don't think people use them to gender people.

[Bookworm]

I am not really looking for things to wear with the sole intent of having a female shape. I mean that would be nice too. I am really wondering what all I could wear under normal male clothes or female clothes that are borderline enough to not really matter. I have been thinking about tights, body shapers, stockings, female socks (I know they are just socks like any other socks, but these at least have a female on the package), etc.

[EllieM]

A nice camisole perhaps?

[Jamie D]

Sorry, don't know much about waist cinchers (sounds REALLY uncomfortable).

I don't have much of a waist, but I don't think it's a problem for passability. GGs' waists vary so much, I don't think people use them to gender people.

A waist cincher is like a small version of a corset.  It is for helping gain or maintain an hourglass figure.