95 days to go...!

[Ms Grace]

That's 95 days until I plan go full time - that's when I'm hoping to come out full time at work, all my documentation has been changed, folks and siblings know, Facebook knows, etc. Very scary but exciting!

I'd like to use this thread as a bit of a countdown and a place to jot down any significant events or witty bon mots.

[Jessica Merriman]

That's 95 days until I plan go full time

I bet you don't make it that far!*giggle* I love the idea of you keeping us in the count down loop. It will help with odds in the betting pool! OK, who has day 36? Winner day 36!

[Jamie D]

Reminds me of that drinking song about bottles of beer on the wall. 

[Joan]

June 1st eh?  Good for you Grace!

Good luck with getting everything in place.  It will be a big effort I expect, but so exciting to finally be getting started 

I'll be rooting for you quietly from the next time zone

[Ms Grace]

I bet you don't make it that far!*giggle* I love the idea of you keeping us in the count down loop. It will help with odds in the betting pool! OK, who has day 36? Winner day 36!

You're on!

Reminds me of that drinking song about bottles of beer on the wall. 

I guess I could drink a bottle of beer every day!

June 1st eh?  Good for you Grace!

Good luck with getting everything in place.  It will be a big effort I expect, but so exciting to finally be getting started 

I'll be rooting for you quietly from the next time zone

Thanks Joan!

It's a few days past June 1, for very particular reasons which I'll get into at some point...

[Ms Grace]

94 days...

Not much to report today, I was going to go shoe shopping at the local store with shoes for large footed women but it's been raining steadily all morning, so I'll postpone that one until Thursday.

It was a busy week though, went out three nights in a row as Grace and had a blast each time. Had a work function last night for a dear and respected colleague who is moving on after 16 years (I've known her for 15 years of that!) and had no choice but to go in dude mode which was a bit of a bummer, still had a good time though...I find a lot of Grace is starting to bleed through into my male presentation.

BTW I don't mean to refer to myself in the third person, I don't perceive "Grace" as a separate personality or identity, just seems easier to differentiate between modes of presentation at the moment.

There were a couple of former colleagues at this farewell last night, hadn't seen them for several months. One remarked on how youthful I was looking, "very youthful" in fact! Given that I'm 48 in a few days it was quite a compliment. The other one then decided it was because I was growing my hair longer. The 'mones (as I like to call them) are really kicking in now, feel like I look different every morning.

[Jessica Merriman]

94 days...
went out three nights in a row as Grace and had a blast each time.

Watch it girl the genie is stirring in her bottle a little with slight pressure on the lid!*giggle*

[Ms Grace]

Watch it girl the genie is stirring in her bottle a little with slight pressure on the lid!*giggle*

Oh the genie is well and truly out...now all I have to do is decide whether she is good Jeanie or naughty Jeanie (ala Barbara Eden in I Dream of Jeanie when she also played her mischievous genie sister)

[Ms Grace]

93 days...

I've been wondering what to do with my guy clothes. Not that I have much of a wardrobe anyway, I hate having to buy guy clothes and only ever do it when something else has fallen apart and needs replacing. Sad, I know. Since deciding to retransition I think I've only bought two items of male clothing to help me through summer. No point in buying stuff I won't be using beyond May. But yeah, there is some stuff. I had been thinking of giving them to a charity but realised I have a friend who is into second hand stuff and has my frame (as long as he loses a few pounds!) so I suggested that to him and he was open to the idea. My only reservation is that it might be a bit weird seeing him wearing clothes I used to own...?

[Ms Grace]

92 days...

Had another full body wax today. Truth be told, even though it was some 60 days since the last one I didn't really need it all that much. The hair on my arms which used to be plentiful and wiry are now sparse and downy. Ditto my under arms, chest and butt. My legs are probably still the only major hair factories but compared to a year ago, significantly lighter too. The hair certainly comes out a lot easier so it wasn't particularly painful either. So I didn't need to have it but I'm still really glad I did, it's great to feel so smooth all over. Will probably get another before the next 92 days are up...I go to a place which specialises in male hair removal so technically I won't be able to be a customer from June onwards (unless I go there cross dressed as a guy!)...

[Jamie D]

I have never waxed, but I have wanted to get my brows "threaded."

[Jenny07]

Bet your devastated Grace.

Zapped mine with laser last year. I love being hare free.

[Ms Grace]

I have never waxed, but I have wanted to get my brows "threaded."

OK, I'm not even sure what that means...but it sounds painful!

Bet your devastated Grace.

Zapped mine with laser last year. I love being hare free.

[helen2010]

I bet you don't make it that far!*giggle* I love the idea of you keeping us in the count down loop. It will help with odds in the betting pool! OK, who has day 36? Winner day 36!

Jessica
Having recently met Grace I am with you on this.  Frankly Grace is 100 per cent ready.  Xmas won't come quickly enough for her.  I bet she opens her presents early and transitions early!
You go girl!

[Ms Grace]

91 days...

Having recently met Grace I am with you on this.  Frankly Grace is 100 per cent ready.  Xmas won't come quickly enough for her.  I bet she opens her presents early and transitions early!

You and Jessica might very well be right. Mind you, you met me on a good night!

For me, going full time will just be a case of going more and more part time until I'm no longer in dude mode. In that time I'll be working on my beard (got 20 hours electro lined up between now and June (about a quarter of remaining work)), working on my wardrobe and shoes (want to make sure I've got enough outfits for work, rest and play - but especially work, if other women are anything to go by I need a minimum of two weeks worth of change of clothes! Per season!!), changing my name and related documentation and, hardest of all, telling the family. By the time I come out at work, at the end of this countdown, pretty much all that stuff should be dealt with. Fingers crossed!

[Ms Grace]

90 days...

Don't be surprised if the countdown suddenly changes to 20 or something... gahh! Stuff is happening that has suddenly made me very impatient!! More on that after I've spoken to my gender counsellor... looks like you may have been right Jessica and Aisla! 

Anyway, I just wanted to share a beautiful message I got from a friend via Facebook the other day. I went to a friend's art show last week, I went as Grace and this was my third time out - first time interacting with a lot of people I'd never met before. Wow was I nervous! Sweating bullets! Another friend - S - was there, she was a friend during my first attempt at transition and was one of my greatest supporters during that time. When things started going pear-shaped she still stood by me but I was so self-absorbed and distressed I pushed her and many others away (not abusively but just by cutting off contact). I was feeling so much shame about wanting to detransition I couldn't bear to face my friends and supporters. I think I've only ever seen S twice over the past twenty or so years (and I friended her on FB about 16 months ago), the issue was never really raised and we were both on good terms but I still felt pretty bad. Anyway, she reacted positively to meeting me as Grace and we had a good chat. A day or so I thought I should just fill her in on the situation so sent her a FB message thanking her for the other night, telling her how I regarded her support from the first time, my sadness at how things ended then, apologising for my behaviour at the time and followed up with just a bit about how things were going for me now.

She wrote back a few days later with a beautiful message of support, so very happy for me and recognising that now seems to be the right time for me. It truly touched my heart. Seriously, what a wonderful goddess!

[Jenny07]

Continue dreaming Grace, you have no chance of 90 days...

[Cindy]

I reckon 90 days and 10 to go. Maybe before your manager leaves? Then you go FT with support at work?
Possibly, possibly, maybe, I'll think about it and then all of a sudden...................................................

Hi world, meet Grace and be very happy!

[Jamie D]

Threading

[Ms Grace]

Continue dreaming Grace, you have no chance of 90 days...

Yes, seems I might surprise myself... but not anyone else!

Hi world, meet Grace and be very happy!

I'm looking forward to it... and petrified at the same time!

Threading

That looks remarkably effective but I think I'll stick to tweezing, fortunately don't have many monster hairs in my eye browns. One has to wonder how on earth someone came up with that technique though??