95 days to go...!

[Cindy]

Jenny and you can start the petrified next step cub, Catherine and I can be the so what's the problems arm. Take your time.

[Catherine Sarah]

The first night you came to dinner, Grace, I was surprised you had the patience to last 90 days. You were sooooo ready for it then.

Whenever you're ready Jenny, you can join us for dinner. Just ask Grace how easy it was for her. She was a natural, just like you. Hope to see you soon. 

Huggs
Catherine

[Jenny07]

Doing my best Catherine but it's not easy as you would know.

[Catherine Sarah]

Hi Jenny,

I'll drop you a message when I get back next month, if you like.

Huggs
Catherine

[Ms Grace]

The first night you came to dinner, Grace, I was surprised you had the patience to last 90 days. You were sooooo ready for it then.

Whenever you're ready Jenny, you can join us for dinner. Just ask Grace how easy it was for her. She was a natural, just like you. Hope to see you soon. 

Oh yeah, but I was pooping myself at first... only my third time out, I relaxed after that glass of champagne though!!

Doing my best Catherine but it's not easy as you would know.

No pressure, whenever you're ready and not a second sooner. Do hope you can make it though... I'm a bore but Catherine is a blast!

[Jenny07]

Is Catherine trained in explosives as well?

[Ms Grace]

89 days...

Two great things today... the first being that I got dressed at work  as Grace at the end of the day before leaving - and invited down a colleague and the boss since they both know about my transition and were more than a little to curious to meet the real me. And wow, didn't I get a great reaction! It's the wig that seals the deal, totally transforms me in a way that's hard to explain. They could hardly believe it was me and thought I looked great, so definitely an ego boost... won't be able to fit my head the door soon.

As a side note I've pretty much decided to out myself to the majority of the women at work, probably in one go, sometime early next week. After that? Who can tell. The main thing holding me back is outing myself to my family, not looking forward to it at all... 

Second great thing? Is four great things... I got dressed after work so I could catch the train out to my local station and go shoe shopping!! Here's two of the pairs...



oh hey, at 6'3" I'm already tall enough, right? Apparently not! I never thought I'd ever wear, lead alone buy high heels. Never say never. Fell in love with them...couldn't say no. How could I say no? These are for extra special occasions (hope I have some!) and amazingly are quite easy to walk in and make my legs look great. 



Alright, something very sensible and comfortable too. These are definitely more my speed. Cute!

Also bought a pair of ankle boots and sandals, photos when I manage to take a decent shot of them.

I had two women helping me at this shoe store - they no doubt get a lot of trans women clientele given that they specialise in shoes for larger women's sizes (at a 10-11 I qualify). Whether they suspected or not they never gave it away. And being referred to as "her" in conversation was an amazing experience. I was a little stressed going into the shop but that evaporated quickly, they were very helpful and nice to me (well, duh, they wanted my money) - quite different to the usual experience of buying men's shoes. And I have to say I could have tried on twice as much as I did (about 12 pairs in total) but I was already there for an hour and ran up a fair bill in the process. Buying women's shoes is so much more fun!!

Think I now have an OK start to a shoe collection, need a few more though

[Ms Grace]

Is Catherine trained in explosives as well?

Boom boom!

[Catherine Sarah]

Oh yeah, but I was pooping myself at first... only my third time out, I relaxed after that glass of champagne though!!

And yet you are such a natural woman. And that's the way everyone perceives you.

Huggs
Catherine

[Jenny07]

Oh deer, looks like we've lost the birthday girl to shoe shopping.
Will we ever see her again

[Jamie D]

Sensible shoes?  Sensible shoes?!  Sensible shoes?!?!

What fun are those?? ?? ??

[Ms Grace]

Oh deer, looks like we've lost the birthday girl to shoe shopping.
Will we ever see her again

I did emerge from a pile a boxes and pumps, some $$$ poorer, but here I am!

Sensible shoes?  Sensible shoes?!  Sensible shoes?!?!

What fun are those?? ?? ??

Oh, none at all...but at least I can walk in them without breaking my ankle!

[Ms Grace]

88 days...

Saw my Gender Counsellor, talked about my various positive experiences since I saw him last...and fortunately there had been quite a few! My counsellor is a great guy, he was sincerely complimentary about my progress over the past several months. Of course a trip to the counsellor wouldn't be complete without a few tears, which were spilled when I talked about my concerns around outing to my family. This is my biggest hurdle to going full time - gah! Anyway, I'm working myself up to it...expect the worst, hope for the best as they say.

It was a warm late summer day so I went out dressed the most casual I've ever tried...a simple black camisole with a stripy purple/bluish/white sarong/wrap around. Put purple nail polish on my toes and wore the sandals I bought yesterday. A few bits of jewellery and it seemed to work very well. Before I went to the counselling I went to the local shopping centre/mall, bought some lunch and ate it in the food court. I had a couple if women speak to me (just to borrow chairs from my table) which gave me a bit more practice using my voice with strangers, etc. I'm always surprised when people don't even blink, to my mind/ear my voice isn't what you'd expect to hear coming out of a woman's mouth but clearly it's feminine enough (or not masculine enough) to do the trick.

After the session I caught the train back out home and went shopping for clothes. Bought my first pair of women's trousers, despite my height they fit perfectly! Really need the gaff for tucking to wear them properly though...a very snug fit in the crotch! Also got some skirts and a couple if tops including a blouse...just why are women and men's buttons on opposite sides anyway??

I pass well in a dress, but have always doubted I could in pants (after some notably "traumatic" misgenderings during my first transition attempt) but now I'm beginning to believe I can do it. Photos in a later post!

[Ms Grace]

87 days...

Not much to report from today it was a fairly perfunctory domestic day of cleaning and washing and doing not much at all, although I have been pondering how and when to out myself to my family... :/

Anyway, here are the other two pairs of shoes I bought the other day...



Oh, ankle high boots, how do I love thee?? Let me count the ways! These are remarkably comfy and easy to walk in! I love boots anyway, they always make my feet feel nice and snug!



I wore these out yesterday (and painted my toe nails beforehand to celebrate) - it was a fairly warm day so they were very comfy! As a kid I always loathed wearing sandals, but that was because I had to wear the boy variety and felt like an utter dork...these are a totally different story.

[Jessica Merriman]

I KNEW SHE WOULDN'T MAKE IT 90 DAYS!

Grace honey, you are so gone girl! Any day now it will be official.*giggles*

[Jenny07]

She will be lucky to make out the month based on the shoes!

What's that 21 days!

87? Yeah right.

[Jessica Merriman]

She will be lucky to make out the month based on the shoes!

If she makes out the month I will buy her another pair. If she doesn't I want hers. *giggle*

[Joan]

I love the sandals, Grace

It seems like you're getting everything in place to go full time in...how ever many days it takes you to get there

[Ms Grace]

Grace honey, you are so gone girl! Any day now it will be official.*giggles*

You are very likely right! Very likely indeed...

If she makes out the month I will buy her another pair. If she doesn't I want hers. *giggle*

Shouldn't that be the other way around?? 

She will be lucky to make out the month based on the shoes!

They are a sign, aren't they?

I love the sandals, Grace

It seems like you're getting everything in place to go full time in...how ever many days it takes you to get there

Thanks Joan, yes I'm trying to get myself set up a bit before I take the plunge. Thing is a lot of that has been easier to swing and organise than I expected...plus passing this time has felt much easier and more natural than before. We shall see...all these other nay sayers are doubting I'll make it to June...

[Cindy]

I'm proud of you Grace and you have great taste in shoes.

Mmm lets see, before Easter I reckon