I realize that regrets do nothing productive, but sometimes just getting it out helps. My whole life I've held in my feelings. For once my feelings matter as well. And sometimes addressing these things help one grown. In my case, I believe this to be true. I'm just learning how to fix things and find out what I need to do, so that I can succesfully transition and have a happy life as a confident girl.
In any case, I have amazing things in my life and am grateful for everything. I don't want people to see my life as a sob story or feel I'm saying woe is me. I'm the luckiest girl in so many ways and thank god everyday for my life. And I have the worlds best family and feel thankful to have them. So, I don't want to sound like I'm complaining. Life is beautiful and am happy to be a part of it all. Everything I dream will one day come true. I'll make life what I want it to be, it's just a process.
Like I said, I want to leave this thread on a happy note. I have no regrets about life and am excited about the future. I'm getting closer and closer to my goal. Tomorrow I start working at my old job, so financially I'll be better off (even though it's temp) and more able to invest in my transition again. That's a great and positive development. Things are looking up and I'll get to where I want to be.
