What made you unhappy today? 5.0

[immortal gypsy]

Have a suspicion I'm going to spend the night in emergency.  Annoying epilepsy

[Lauren5]

my hair dryer just hit my face

What? o.0
I'm sorry, that's a little funny

[AnneB]

Have a suspicion I'm going to spend the night in emergency.  Annoying epilepsy

really sorry, Gypsy, I hope you can dodge it today!  Hugs, sis.


My mom is back from her trip to Europe (not a metaphor), couple days now, and I am sure, she will not speak to me anyway, because I'm trans.  Tho I have told my family I will ..  remain.. as the form I was born as, I believe I have still lost many of my family.  16 days off my (herbal) hormones and I'm really messed up inside.

[ErinWDK]

I think I need to get a hardware catalogue to find out what kind of a tool this person is. 

A good while ago a got a tool I needed at Lowes and they called it a compost fork.  The old time farmers had a name for this sort of tool they used to clean up the cow barn.  Um, no, I was not looking for "pitch fork."  That would seem to fit...


Erin

[Christinetobe]

I have spent my entire day making phone calls for something that has nothing to do with my job while my members were ignored because we all have to "help out" it just annoys me because when I started nobody helped me with my 90 new members grrrrrrrrrrr

[immortal gypsy]

really sorry, Gypsy, I hope you can dodge it today!  Hugs, sis.

I tried, I woke up in hospital and ended up having my phone stolen while I was semi concious

My mom is back from her trip to Europe (not a metaphor), couple days now, and I am sure, she will not speak to me anyway, because I'm trans.  Tho I have told my family I will ..  remain.. as the form I was born as, I believe I have still lost many of my family.  16 days off my (herbal) hormones and I'm really messed up inside.

Hopefully you and your mother start talking soon

[Bombadil]

Sorry you ended up in the hospital gypsy. Hope you can head home soon.

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I have a sinus infection. Bleh

[Shantel]

I tried, I woke up in hospital and ended up having my phone stolen while I was semi concious

Hopefully you and your mother start talking soon

That sucks, get well honey!

[Umiko]

darn tera online isnt letting me log into my game -.-

[Jill F]

Broke my fingernail today.  This time almost down to the bed.   There's already a bunch of krazy glue holding it together and I'm afraid it's going to be a complete loss soon.

First world problems.  I know...  STFU Jill!

[immortal gypsy]

Broke my fingernail today.  This time almost down to the bed.   There's already a bunch of krazy glue holding it together and I'm afraid it's going to be a complete loss soon.

First world problems.  I know...  STFU Jill!

I like the odd first world problem thanks for making me smile something I needed right now

[@Diana]

been raining all day all night, i HATE rain

oops forgot to buy condense milk too 

[immortal gypsy]

Sorry you ended up in the hospital gypsy. Hope you can head home soon.

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I have a sinus infection. Bleh

That sucks, get well honey!

Thank you  you time fir someone to go to bed

Why is the sun shining oh so bright as bright as bright can be?

plagiarizing the walrus and the carpenter

[@Diana]

What? o.0
I'm sorry, that's a little funny

oops just saw this

yes it was funny .. i did laughed at maself too




























@Gypsy, hope you are feeling better now

[Shantel]

Mowed my lawn yesterday and blew the fir needles and twigs off my patio, got the patio half pressure washed when the @#&*! machine broke down for good and it started pouring down rain. I'll have to learn to pace myself in the future because my entire body is killing me now that I'm older and no longer have my former strength and endurance.

[Rainbow Brite]

I've been off my Tblocker and E for 10days now, feeling like crap. I'm losing my mojo..  my mind's a mess and I miss my family. I promised my wife I'd stop where I am but this is so hard.   I don't get home until tomorrow night and then its only for 14 hrs before I go back out again.  The only good, is I have 6days off after Sunday. 6 blessed days of being ignored, shunned, glared at and ridiculed.. I can hardly wait!

*hugs* im sorry to hear that. When I couldnt afford spiro and E, it screwed with my self perception really badly. My appearance would somehow feel distorted or disjointed somehow when I looked in the mirror.


This past Tuesday I had my first ever anxiety attack.  It happened at work and I ended up being prescribed Zoloft.
I was also given medical leave. None of my so called friends at work even called to find out if I was okay. Instead, it was a girl I barely talk to on the line who looked for me on facebook and asked if i was okay

[AnneB]

Rainbow, sorry you had the anxiety attack, sis.. It's .. Strange.. Funny.. Ironic.. that the one that took a real interest in how you were was a girl too... maybe you two can be closer friends, at least, closer than your other friends that don't seem to care.  Maybe, you've just gained a new sister, or just closer friend.  We can always use a closer friend.

I hope you are able to self soothe, let your friends, here, and new friend there, smile to you, help you relax a bit.

[Adam (birkin)]

GRRRR. I keep calling human resources for one of my old jobs and this woman is never able to answer her phone or reply to my messages. I NEED to change my name with them so I can list this job on my job history. What blows is that I have to keep going through customer service since their number isn't listed for HR. I'm starting to get really PO'd because I can't have a huge gap in my job history, but I can't list this as one of my jobs without them having a record of the name change.

I'm almost getting to the point where I want to be like, you know what, screw this. I'll list on the job application that I used to be *extremely feminine name that is only ever given to women EVER* and either get my application thrown in the trash before I get a chance, or humiliate myself in front of my new boss.

I also woke up at 2:20 am and have not been able to fall asleep since...it's now 10 am. That is probably part of the reason I am so hostile. But I can't sleep because I am awake thinking about how I have no money and want to get this new job so badly because it really is a great fit. Unemployment is making me so depressed, I'm not meant to live this way, it's been 5 months now and I feel like a total loser and failure. Like my life is off track and will never get better.

[Shantel]

GRRRR. I keep calling human resources for one of my old jobs and this woman is never able to answer her phone or reply to my messages. I NEED to change my name with them so I can list this job on my job history. What blows is that I have to keep going through customer service since their number isn't listed for HR. I'm starting to get really PO'd because I can't have a huge gap in my job history, but I can't list this as one of my jobs without them having a record of the name change.

I'm almost getting to the point where I want to be like, you know what, screw this. I'll list on the job application that I used to be *extremely feminine name that is only ever given to women EVER* and either get my application thrown in the trash before I get a chance, or humiliate myself in front of my new boss.

I also woke up at 2:20 am and have not been able to fall asleep since...it's now 10 am. That is probably part of the reason I am so hostile. But I can't sleep because I am awake thinking about how I have no money and want to get this new job so badly because it really is a great fit. Unemployment is making me so depressed, I'm not meant to live this way, it's been 5 months now and I feel like a total loser and failure. Like my life is off track and will never get better.

No-one is ever truly stealth, we all need to get over that idea because employers and HR people do background checks, there's always going to be something to raise a flag or flags. Best to lay it all out up front along with any accolades from previous employment and if they value you for your capabilities over trans issues then good, if they have an Ewww moment, then you don't want to work for them anyway because they will pull that Ewwww crap on you at some later date and let you go under the guise of some pretense BS. You don't want to work for them anyway, so you may as well put it all out there and prequalify them as a potential employer in the process. It can work both ways.

[Rainbow Brite]

Rainbow, sorry you had the anxiety attack, sis.. It's .. Strange.. Funny.. Ironic.. that the one that took a real interest in how you were was a girl too... maybe you two can be closer friends, at least, closer than your other friends that don't seem to care.  Maybe, you've just gained a new sister, or just closer friend.  We can always use a closer friend.

I hope you are able to self soothe, let your friends, here, and new friend there, smile to you, help you relax a bit.

I don't know.. she could only be interested in getting the truth and gossiping... I don't know her well enough. I was supposed to be at work today but I took the Zoloft for the first time and it made me drowsy. I have to get used to it I guess. But I can't operate overhead cranes like my job requires and do it safely with my head in a fog. It's not safe. So I'm returning on Monday. But just the drive to work made my stomach knot up.