What made you unhappy today? 5.0

[Natalia]

Did they say you had to stop HRT for FFS? I know that for GRS they sometimes do if you're going to be immobile for a length of time on account clotting concerns. Wishing you well with that too, you're already very attractive so you have a jump on it.

Yep, two weeks prior to the surgery... I just fear losing all that I've got until now.

Probably they fear blood cotts...the thing is have made all my exams while taking my usual HRT...so I just hope everything is fine...

I'm in the process of booking an FFS date. And I don't feel happy at all. Just sad that I had to resort to a surgeon because I barely look feminine. I'll be using whatever is left of my savings, and it won't even be a complete FFS.

Mine won't be really complete too...some people told me that I should have a mentoplasty and a jaw recountoring (even though I don't think it is really necessary)...but the most important for most people is just brow + rhinoplasty

[Apples Mk.II]

Mine won't be really complete too...some people told me that I should have a mentoplasty and a jaw recountoring (even though I don't think it is really necessary)...but the most important for most people is just brow + rhinoplasty

The surgeon set the jaw and chin as the least important recommended procedures of the bunch.... I also decided to pass on the lip lift because It gets out of my budget. Forehead, nose, eyelids and trach shave. Also, After FFS I want to save for SRS... so no clue on when I will be able to do the rest. I should get a second job as an escort.

[Felix]

Friday was my birthday and I had long standing plans to get together for dinner with an old friend. A few hours before we're due to meet she sends me a text that her training is going late and she won't be able to make it. We're both nurses so I know how this goes. I asked her to send me a message if she gets off in time so we can just meet since we haven't seen each other in months.

I decided to go to Denny's for dinner and made a stop at Fred Meyers to grab something for desert and what do I see? My friend who'se too busy to take me to the dinner she promised me weeks before, picking up meal type items. I didn't even say anything, I just walked away without her seeing me. 45 minutes later she texts me and tells me she's just getting out of training and is too tired and drained to get together. I was so upset I just went home and went to bed. She was one of my closest friends, one of the first when I moved to Alaska and someone I always thought I could trust and she lied to me - not one but twice. To say I was devastated is an understatement. It really put a bad spin on my whole weekend and confirmed for me that I simply cannot trust people. What a ->-bleeped-<-ty way to spend a birthday.

Blowing someone off with excuses like that is more harmful than just cancelling and being point-blank about why. I'm sorry she did that to you. Interpersonal poison can be really hard to take on birthdays and important holidays.

I'm unhappy right now because I had dental work the other day, and the more I think about it the more I feel like a gullible doormat. I had had a root canal in the past on a tooth that just crumbled and fell out afterward, so I made an appointment to get the roots looked at before they get infected or further buried under the gums. The hygienist was super judgy. I told her I brush and floss and do everything I'm supposed to do, and she said I should brush longer and floss more often. She pointed out how stained my teeth are and acted disgusted. I've been drinking coffee since I was in gradeschool, and I smoked for a decade and a half, and I never asked about whitening anyhow. I asked how to keep my teeth from falling out. She said the one that fell out was my own fault for not telling the dentist to put on a crown after the root canal. Like I'm supposed to know that. I asked if the grinding I used to do caused much damage, and she explained how to buy a biteguard like she was talking to a five year old. There's a visible hole in my canine and it hurts like lightning when anything touches it, and she sighed when I recoiled from her poking it with a tool and said that sensitive teeth are no big deal. I always trust everybody and assume any social dissonance is my fault and now I feel like an idiot. And my teeth are still falling apart.

The dentist is mean as hell too, but he's just kind of rough and aggressive and it doesn't feel personal.

I wish I could just get all my teeth pulled and buy some dentures.

[Jaime R D]

The dentist is mean as hell too, but he's just kind of rough and aggressive and it doesn't feel personal.

I'm pretty sure dentists have to be somewhat sadistic to do what they do anyway.

[Felix]

I'm pretty sure dentists have to be somewhat sadistic to do what they do anyway.

Yeah I can't begin to imagine what it must like being such an intense source of fear for so many people.

[Matthew]

Waking up

[King Malachite]

I broke the top of my disinfectant spray. 

[Bombadil]

hang in there matthew

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what made me unhappy? finding out I really did break my finger and that I have to see a hand specialist because of where the break is. I guess it's not such a good place to break it? at least I got the x-rays done today because that was not fun.

[CalmRage]

i played some guitar today. but while i sounded very good the last few days (probably the excitement from something that happened that's bound to make this a better year), today i sounded like crap. Mistakes every other second. Sometimes i'm not feeling it. Also i'm feeling a bit in love (or am I? do I know what it feels like? it's difficult for me to tell. i already perveive feelings different from others.) with someone who doesn't like relationships and probably would also just want me as a friend (she must never know it, i don't want to ruin our friendship).

Maybe i'm just having an episode who knows.

[Shana-chan]

->-bleeped-<- day yesterday. Was too tired, running on fumes/conversations with people to keep me awake hence why posting this today.

Yesterday I visited the doc, found out I have some scaring on my ear drum which was news to me. She says it's old and must have happened when I was a kid. I need to find more info on this though. Anyway, was told the reason why I've been feeling like I'm going to puke (Curse my high tolerance to being able to puke!  ) and was prescribed meds which came up to $400, I walked away from the pharmacy humiliated and upset and got depressed. Why? Because $400 I can't afford and didn't know what else was going to happen. On top of that, some people ended up hearing a male voice come from me. (I can pass as female so this was embarrassing for me but I had to use male voice/name at the pharmacy so yeah..) On top of that, so much is going on it's getting to me. Luckily I wasn't feeling pukey yesterday (Sadly I am today) and the day could have been worse but thanks to the conversations I had with people online, it took my mind off of things and cheered me up.

Oh, I forgot to say but, it also sounds like my worker's comp will pay for the meds... if only I'd thought of it sooner or someone had told me... -_-

[big kim]

Cold enough for my overcoat and gloves!

[mac1]

Cold enough for my overcoat and gloves!

Where do you live?

[Edge]

I'm worried about my relationship.

[big kim]

Where do you live?

Blackpool

[mac1]

Blackpool

I don't have any idea where that is.

[Edge]

People who presume to speak for me and apologize on my behalf for something I am not sorry for and should never feel sorry for.
People who assume I am here for something I'm not and that I want to be someone I'm not.

I have to have a serious conversation with my boyfriend where we are likely to get into a huge argument and break up, but the other alternative is even worse. I have no idea when we'll be able to have this conversation and, in the meantime, my nerves are getting to me and I wish I could talk to someone.

[Wynternight]

Blackpool

Lancashire?

[Bombadil]

This stupid split I'm in doesn't let me do anything and this speech recognition program that doesn't work well

[big kim]

Lancashire?

That's the one

[Jaime R D]

my supervisor challenged me to that ALS ice water challenge thing. 


Now I have to figure out who I am going to challenge when I do it later today.