What made you unhappy today? 5.0

[mac1]

->-bleeped-<- day yesterday. Was too tired, running on fumes/conversations with people to keep me awake hence why posting this today.

Yesterday I visited the doc, found out I have some scaring on my ear drum which was news to me. She says it's old and must have happened when I was a kid. I need to find more info on this though. Anyway, was told the reason why I've been feeling like I'm going to puke (Curse my high tolerance to being able to puke!  ) and was prescribed meds which came up to $400, I walked away from the pharmacy humiliated and upset and got depressed. Why? Because $400 I can't afford and didn't know what else was going to happen. On top of that, some people ended up hearing a male voice come from me. (I can pass as female so this was embarrassing for me but I had to use male voice/name at the pharmacy so yeah..) On top of that, so much is going on it's getting to me. Luckily I wasn't feeling pukey yesterday (Sadly I am today) and the day could have been worse but thanks to the conversations I had with people online, it took my mind off of things and cheered me up.

Oh, I forgot to say but, it also sounds like my worker's comp will pay for the meds... if only I'd thought of it sooner or someone had told me... -_-

Girl what brought all of this on?

[Jaime R D]

Some dude that came into the store told me that I had beautiful facial skin. 

[Shantel]

Some dude that came into the store told me that I had beautiful facial skin.

You do, so do you want him to say you have crappy looking skin instead? Obviously it was intended as a complement even if it was unwanted. What am I gonna do with you girl?

[Jaime R D]

You do, so do you want him to say you have crappy looking skin instead? Obviously it was intended as a complement even if it was unwanted. What am I gonna do with you girl?

Things often get weird once someone tells someone like that about me and its inevitable. 

[Shantel]

Things often get weird once someone tells someone like that about me and its inevitable.

Sometimes women tell me I have nice skin, I don't think that know why and I don't volunteer any info and just say thanks and count it as a complement.

[Jaime R D]

Sometimes women tell me I have nice skin, I don't think that know why and I don't volunteer any info and just say thanks and count it as a complement.

I guess I'm just really wary of it as I've had a few get a bit too much in the past.  In fact, the one that had sent me a Christmas card at my work and was after me for a while about going out a few years ago lives close to the store I'm manager of now. He got gas yesterday, but he didn't say anything, so hopefully he found out through someone else about me and won't try to pursue it all over again. That stuff just makes me skittish as hell anymore.

[Shantel]

I guess I'm just really wary of it as I've had a few get a bit too much in the past.  In fact, the one that had sent me a Christmas card at my work and was after me for a while about going out a few years ago lives close to the store I'm manager of now. He got gas yesterday, but he didn't say anything, so hopefully he found out through someone else about me and won't try to pursue it all over again. That stuff just makes me skittish as hell anymore.

I can see why you get the attention though because you are very attractive, but yeah I get how you feel about that stuff I wouldn't care for it either.

[Jaime R D]

I can see why you get the attention though because you are very attractive, but yeah I get how you feel about that stuff I wouldn't care for it either.

my biggest issue with it though is what I know would likely happen once either they find out or someone gives them a hard time for even being attracted to me.

[Allyda]

My next door neighbor keeps asking me out. I'm trying to be nice, and neighborly about this but seriously, when is the guy gonna get the hint? This is like the 8th time he's asked me out in the last 3 weeks, Sheeeeeeesh!

Ali

[Shana-chan]

My next door neighbor keeps asking me out. I'm trying to be nice, and neighborly about this but seriously, when is the guy gonna get the hint? This is like the 8th time he's asked me out in the last 3 weeks, Sheeeeeeesh!

Ali

At times, we must stop with the hinting and gentle let them down with a no. (Though gentler) And if need be, let them down harder. (If the gentle approach doesn't work)

[Shantel]

my biggest issue with it though is what I know would likely happen once either they find out or someone gives them a hard time for even being attracted to me.

Yeah, it's not too pretty and feminine when you have to bash someone's face in self defense! 

[Shana-chan]

having..difficulty...breathing again... hello 2nd magor depression/anxiety attack and in less than 24 hours no less! Thanks SOO f'n much neighbor! getting, dizzy...

[Adam (birkin)]

I made a friend but I think I freaked her out because I talked about something too personal.

I feel like an idiot and I kind of want to just stop talking to her.

[Adam (birkin)]

In other news, I have been extremely sexually frustrated over the last week, to the point where it is literally painful (mentally and emotionally, mostly). I miss holding a woman, kissing, touching. I hate feeling this way cause I just feel like some creepy lonely dude, but it sucks and I want someone to love me lol.

[RockerGirl]

Haven't slept at all, can't turn my damn brain off. Now I have to go to work in an hour, this will not be a fun day:(

[Edge]

At least one of my friends outed me without permission. I'm not sure if it was recently or before, but still.
I hate being treated as if I am inferior. I'm not.

[Shantel]

In other news, I have been extremely sexually frustrated over the last week, to the point where it is literally painful (mentally and emotionally, mostly). I miss holding a woman, kissing, touching. I hate feeling this way cause I just feel like some creepy lonely dude, but it sucks and I want someone to love me lol.

Cyber smoochies and hugs from Auntie Shan!

[Adam (birkin)]

Cyber smoochies and hugs from Auntie Shan!

lol incest

Yeah, thinking on it more it isn't really a sexual thing, it's just a lack of human contact thing. A girl hugged me a few days ago, and a friend hugged me two weeks ago. But other than that I haven't touched another human being in longer than I can remember. I don't hug my family. I sometimes hold one of my client's hands when she cries. But that's it.

[Shantel]

lol incest

Yeah, thinking on it more it isn't really a sexual thing, it's just a lack of human contact thing. A girl hugged me a few days ago, and a friend hugged me two weeks ago. But other than that I haven't touched another human being in longer than I can remember. I don't hug my family. I sometimes hold one of my client's hands when she cries. But that's it.

Human contact is essential for good mental and spiritual health, sex shouldn't even come into the equation unless it somehow morphs there and is mutually consented to. I love hugs and pass out plenty of them myself, suppose I got that from my mom's ethnic French background. My spouse's family is decidedly of British extraction, touching and hugging doesn't come naturally for them, ergo cold, unfeeling and rigid is the order of the day until I light a match under their asses with my outgoing warm personality. I guess like the saying goes, "Opposites attract!"

[Shana-chan]

3 cavities=$600 smackers I'm going to lose within the next 6 months. -_- (Because waiting makes it worse and they don't recommend that)

Today in addition to that https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,172152.msg1506109.html#msg1506109

and now I wait for life to HOPEFULLY get better, tis slower than Christmas though.