My low self-esteem is making me suicidial..? I don't wanna be a short male..

[MartyMcfly]

I went to my pediatrician this passing Tuesday and she told me i was almost done growing and i only had 1 more inch or so left.. because i already started female growth.. some bullsh*t. What pissed me off is how can she just predict it like its that simple, like she knows? she didn't even x-ray my growth plates, shes just SO sure.

Im only 5'1 in a half and i hate it, because once i get my sex change i don't want to be a short man. at least 5'6 5'7 5'5 but 5'1? i just can't smile about it. People say sh*t like "you have to learn to love yourself", dont hand that bullsh*t to me because i won't learn to love this. EVER. i cried because im so depressed about my whole body.. fars me being a female, fars me being short. I just really wanna kill myself.

IS THERE HOPE? Can i make it to my 5'6 , 5'7 on T if my growth plates arent fused (which they arent) ? Was there ANY ftm's that grew taller? I mean ANY? if im left at this height ill be better off dead.. yes. its that serious. Ya know. kinda similiar to how you were before you got your sex change. You were depressed in that wrong body. think about it. before you hand me some crap. Please

[Brandon]

No one can predict how much you will grow, I mean I'm 5'4 and it sucks but I'm pretty sure ill put on a few more inches but I brelieve gentics plays a part in it so if you have taller people in your family then you could turn out to be tall or vice versa. I'm still pre everything but height come on man I know I'm taller than you but it bothers me yea..... I'm not gonna lie but you shouldn't let that discourage you at all. And 5'6 5'7 its still considered short but average.

[MartyMcfly]

No one can predict how much you will grow, I mean I'm 5'4 and it sucks but I'm pretty sure ill put on a few more inches but I brelieve gentics plays a part in it so if you have taller people in your family then you could turn out to be tall or vice versa. I'm still pre everything but height come on man I know I'm taller than you but it bothers me yea..... I'm not gonna lie but you shouldn't let that discourage you at all. And 5'6 5'7 its still considered short but average.

yeah i know thats short still but for a FTM thats not that bad. Im not gonna go to the extremes wanting to be 6'1 because i know for sure that won't happen for me but at least 5'7, 5'8 or 5'6. Im young, Im praying to god i grow more. and fars tall people in my family yes, i hardly see any short people in my family. My mother is 5'4 and my pa is 6'1. My brothers = 5'8 and 5'11 and my sisters = 5'6 and 5'0 ( I was born after the sister thats 5'0 but she was premature.) But i would even be happy to be 5'4 like you. but 5'1? Im just stressing and so sad atm.

[Brandon]

yeah i know thats short still but for a FTM thats not that bad. Im not gonna go to the extremes wanting to be 6'1 because i know for sure that won't happen for me but at least 5'7, 5'8 or 5'6. Im young, Im praying to god i grow more. and fars tall people in my family yes, i hardly see any short people in my family. My mother is 5'4 and my pa is 6'1. My brothers = 5'8 and 5'11 and my sisters = 5'6 and 5'0 ( I was born after the sister thats 5'0 but she was premature.) But i would even be happy to be 5'4 like you. but 5'1? Im just stressing and so sad atm.

And I completely understand that, It definately is sad because I get angry sometimes but like I said you can't let that stop you from being you man! I know that its hard and its fustrating but I didn't let it stop me and know I have lots of male friends and female friends who see only a guy and everyone knows who Brandon is and Ive been contemplating suicide for years know but the whole moral to the story is be thankful for what you do have and you might just grow somemore or if you start T early enough you might put on some more inches.

[MartyMcfly]

And I completely understand that, It definately is sad because I get angry sometimes but like I said you can't let that stop you from being you man! I know that its hard and its fustrating but I didn't let it stop me and know I have lots of male friends and female friends who see only a guy and everyone knows who Brandon is and Ive been contemplating suicide for years know but the whole moral to the story is be thankful for what you do have and you might just grow somemore or if you start T early enough you might put on some more inches.

That actually kinda helps me man, hearing someone else give me hope for once instead of hearing people telling me its impossible, It won't happen, and so on. It just puts me in a dark place and you giving me hope kinda made me feel better.. the fact that some people may talk about me and say "wow, he's making a big deal out of height" but no one will never understand except the people that are going through the same thing as me, such as yourself. Low self-esteem and insecurities about certain things is over-welming.

[Brandon]

That actually kinda helps me man, hearing someone else give me hope for once instead of hearing people telling me its impossible, It won't happen, and so on. It just puts me in a dark place and you giving me hope kinda made me feel better.. the fact that some people may talk about me and say "wow, he's making a big deal out of height" but no one will never understand except the people that are going through the same thing as me, such as yourself. Low self-esteem and insecurities about certain things is over-welming.

Yes low self esteem and having lots of insecurities is overwhelming, But we have to be strong about this whole thing, I've gained confidence over the years just from being me and getting the respect I deserve from people.

[Jessica Merriman]

This may not mean much from a cis born male, but I was stuck in height at 5'6" at 19 years old. When I hit 25 I had a major growth spurt to 5'11" so don't give up yet. Genetics are really strange and do weird things to us. I have great hope for you even if you do not get on "T" until you are 18 or 21. Trust me on one thing, I know the fears you have about your body. I starting HRT at 47 and thought I would be doomed to look like a male forever, but changes are happening to change my mind and body. Don't pre judge your future results, they can happen. I am delighted with the progress I am making at feminization and feel you will reach your goals of masculinization as well

[invisiblemonsters]

honestly dude, don't worry about it. this is coming from someone who is only an inch taller than you are. i'm in my 20s, i'm short and i'm in school with guys my height or a bit taller. no one questions it or thinks they're less of a man because of it or thinks i'm less of a man because of it. i haven't started t yet and even though i'm short, i pass fine. height doesn't make up the kind of man you are or how manly or masculine you are just like it doesn't determine how feminine someone is. it's genetics and sometimes you get the short end of the stick (literally...) and honestly, i used to be insecure about it but as i got older, dated and w/e, i realized people don't notice height or don't care as much as i did. if i cared or brought notice to it, they would too. it won't stop you from dating, being one of the guys, or not passing. don't worry so much about it, you might grow or you might not. the key is confidence and that's all you need sometimes.

[Jason C]

Hey, man, I'm just about 5ft, so I get it. It gets me down at times, but can't control it, I'm 21 so I'm for sure done growing. Yeah, with testosterone you might be able to grow more; I've heard of a good few people growing a little bit, so I'd imagine the younger you are, the more you can grow.

I'm sorry if it angers you, but just have to say, height isn't really the be all and end all. Yes it gets you very down, I get it, but when all is said and done, there ARE short guys. LOTS of them. And they can have normal lives, it's not like a severe disadvantage to anything. Society is stupid in that being short is seen as less desirable as being tall, I know, but people will always find a reason to judge you or look down on you in life, so no-one, not a single person, will be able to escape that. Hopefully you could learn to accept your height if it does happen to fall short of your desired height. And I don't say that to make you angry, I just say that because wanting to die is such a horrible feeling, and so I just hope that if it didn't work out ideally, you could learn to be happy in spite of it, because it is possible. I'm not speaking for myself, because I'm still working on not hating myself, but I know it can be done.

I hope it does give you lots of growth, though, it's not impossible, not by a long stretch. My brother's a giant and he's still having growth spurts even though he should be done growing by now. I think he stole my growth spurts, personally lol.

[MartyMcfly]

This may not mean much from a cis born male, but I was stuck in height at 5'6" at 19 years old. When I hit 25 I had a major growth spurt to 5'11" so don't give up yet. Genetics are really strange and do weird things to us. I have great hope for you even if you do not get on "T" until you are 18 or 21. Trust me on one thing, I know the fears you have about your body. I starting HRT at 47 and thought I would be doomed to look like a male forever, but changes are happening to change my mind and body. Don't pre judge your future results, they can happen. I am delighted with the progress I am making at feminization and feel you will reach your goals of masculinization as well

this honestly made me feel better aswell.. Maybe i am prejudging my future. I had so many people telling me that ill be forever this height or 1 inch more, soooo many times. So then i made myself start believing them. Saying their right and im just a silly ole kiddo. smh. anything can happen and your walking proof.

The doctor said that woman with cancer had a few months to live.. Years passed and shes still here..

The weather man predicted snow the next morning.. That morning came, and it was 80 degrees.

nobody is never sure, is what im saying, but thank you so much

[Jill F]

I used to work in the music industry.  There are SO many rock stars that are in the 5'0" to 5'5" range that I couldn't list them all on this page.  Did anyone think less of Ronnie James Dio because of his size?  I wouldn't worry about this.  Guys come in all shapes and sizes too.  I'm 6'2", and I don't have issues.  It just is what it is.  And I would absolutely date a guy that was the Sonny to my Cher or the Boris to my Natasha. 

Ve must stop Moose and Squirrel! LOL

Don't worry, you'll do great.

[Jessica Merriman]

thank you so much

You are more than welcome brother! I got the same advice when I joined here. It took them about 4 months of reassuring me before I would even think about posting a photo here. I had convinced myself I would never look feminine at all, not I cant stop the selfies! 

[Ryan55]

dont let it bother you that much, I'm around 5'3, and it sucks, butttt they have these insole lifts that you can put in your shoes which can make you an inch or two taller lol might help a little

[NickG130]

I did not read what others wrote except the last person. There are shoes & sneakers that make you taller (well appear taller). I have looked into them a lot. I have not purchased bc they do not sell them anywhere in Boston that I can find & I have heard they can feel like you're walking in heels, but I do not know & want to try them on and walk before buying. These types of shoes have been around for decades, so men have been wishing they were taller forever!!! You're not alone.

I can't give out medical advice bc I just do not know. I also do not know how old you are. I asked my doctor to prescribe me the HGH when I was 27 & she said it was too late for me b/c my grow plates had closed. I would definitely suggest talking to your doctor about that.

There is a surgical option, which to me is way too much to go through for such little pay off, but doctors essentially break your legs to add length to them. I did a lot of research on all height options & this one I considered the worst. I would personally go for the shoes.

Also certain things make people appear taller. Patterns on shirts, pleats in pants versus non pleats, avoid plaids, height shoes, you do have options!!!

Seriously ask your doctor about the HGH. I think its best to start as early as possible & I believe its an injection in you belly similar to an insulin injection. Hope it works out dude!!!

[harlee]

I'm pretty obsessed with trying to grow taller as well. I think a lot of people in general are too, not just those that are trans. This is going to make me sound crazy, but if you go on youtube, you can find these videos that are frequencies for growing taller. The videos suggest that listening to these sounds makes your brain release the signals for growing again. Some people might think that this is just stupid but I think the biggest part about it working, is to just believe it. I was almost 5'6 when I started listening and now I am almost 5'7 and I'm 19! I don't have a lot of time to listen to it at the moment, but I want to start again I really think that you can do a lot of things with mind power! I hope I don't seem too crazy haha

[aleon515]

Suicidal over height?! Yes it can suck, but there are worse things. Lots worse!  I am 5'1" and pass 98% of the time. (1 year on T). I feel respected by others and as an adult really no one disses you on account of height. That's kid's stuff. If you are pretty young you might be able to get on HGH but it does have its own side effects and issues.
Learn to respect yourself.

BTW, just nitpicking. This is not a sex change. Your gender is male, if inside yourself you feel male, you don't have to do anything at all. Or you can medically transition to as great an extent as possible or many in between points.

--Jay

[Frank]

I used to work in the music industry.  There are SO many rock stars that are in the 5'0" to 5'5" range that I couldn't list them all on this page.  Did anyone think less of Ronnie James Dio because of his size?  I wouldn't worry about this.  Guys come in all shapes and sizes too.  I'm 6'2", and I don't have issues.  It just is what it is.  And I would absolutely date a guy that was the Sonny to my Cher or the Boris to my Natasha. 

Ve must stop Moose and Squirrel! LOL

Don't worry, you'll do great.

I'm into the music scene, and I swear half the guys are a whopping 5'4 on their toes. It's kind of cute, frankly. I wouldn't worry about the height, nobody gives it a second thought. That being said, I've been known to wear boots that give me an extra inch and a half, so there is that.

[aleon515]

I have quite a few trans woman friends. It's fun to stand beside them as most of them are way way taller than me. Most of them seem self-assured about it, it's just as hard (or harder) for a tall gal. I think a lot of it is self-confidence and how you carry yourself. Okay Boris to Natasha and Moose to Squirrel, going to have to pass that one along.

--Jay

[Whynaut]

I'm a short guy too (5'3" over here). After I moved out at 18 and I changed my lifestyle to be much more active and with a healthier diet, I grew an inch or two. And this was a 20 and pre-everything. Females usually stop growing around 18.

No one knows how much they will or will not grow. You could still hit 5'3" or 5'4" range depending on how old you are but I wouldn't hold out for much more than that.

Either way, as many people have said, it isn't a huge deal. Really, if you don't let it bother you, no one else will care. Own it. I'm a huge nerd so I just claim to be part hobbit (fits with my love of food and my curly hair, too).

[AdamMLP]

I'm 5'2".  One of my instructors is a fully grown man, and presumably cis, and he's just slightly shorter than me (although he won't admit it... it's a running joke we have).  Joke about it before anyone else does and it no longer becomes something that anyone can use against you.

There is a chance that you'll grow on T, but it's something based of anecdotal evidence rather than hard fact, so I can't categorically say that it will happen for you, even if you are young.