Quote from: piglet smith on April 16, 2014, 08:26:49 AM
I have read the topics, I read a lot on here, much more than I ever comment. I don't really get offended or anything by most of it as I just don't feel like I have a dog in the fight, so to speak. I do hope he gets past whatever is bothering him and can move on to better things and thoughts in his life. It takes time to do that though and everyone deals with it differently during the process and we do have to make allowances for it.
Quote from: Eva Marie on April 16, 2014, 08:39:41 AM
FA -
I am sorry that you are having a tough time. Take whatever time you need to get better and know that we are here for you if you need a kind word or a shoulder to lean on.
Thanks.
I'm doing a little better. Still feeling really awful about the thread. In the beginning, I was making some comments intended to be tongue in cheek. But I think something was lost in translation. Anyway, before I know it I'm trying to defend a point intended to just be sarcastic. Then people are thinking I'm trying to be intentionally cruel and I feel bad and...
Quote from: Abbyxo on April 15, 2014, 07:01:32 PM
Hope you're okay, FA 
I feel so bad. There was so much pain in the subtext of what you wrote. I understand everything you were saying, and relate in my own way.
All the best babydoll, hang in there!
Thanks hon. I think you might be right. I always thought I wasn't really affected by living as a woman. Certainly, there are ways other women are affected that I wasn't.
All this stuff I've been saying - it might seem like I'm trying to be mean on purpose by saying all this stuff. But this stuff has been beaten to death in my journal long before I ever talked about it here. So if you believe anything I say, please believe me it was never intended to hurt anyone. I'm upset about problems I perceive as being result of female programming. All this stuff was in my private journal long before I ever mentioned it here. It was never intended to hurt anybody. I'm trying to work stuff out and I'm here all the time and it just spilled over. However, there are a lot of books and websites about these same issues and the harm done to women. So, I do know that it is a thing a lot of women are seriously affected by, especially young girls. I am upset about these issues themselves.
But sad panda said something about how I might be hiding by talking about 'women's issues' in general, so I don't have to talk about my problems. And maybe I am, not on purpose. But because what ails me is very hard to explain. And maybe it just all runs together in my mind and it's hard to really parse it out. Sorry I'm typing a lot here. Guess I just really need to talk.
Being the forum admin, I have tried to not to say much in threads and show kind of a neutral face. Kind of afraid to ask for help. Also, I've been transitioned for a good amount of time. Everything should be resolved by now.
