FA, when you moderate, you always seem to have so much wisdom, balance, and sensitivity. To me, you have always seemed to have a level of maturity that I tend to see in older men, not younger guys. But a good forum admin cannot waffle very often, so you also have a certain degree of resolve and assertiveness and even relative certainty--that what you are doing is probably fair and evenhanded, for example.
The kind of assertiveness that serves you well as an administrator can get you into hot water in other ways if you are not careful.
You do seem to be making blanket statements, and people are weighing in. But I think that those of us who know you relatively well see those statements as a symptom of the pain you are currently experiencing. I say some pretty unsavory things when I'm hurt, angry, or upset. We all have little flaws, and most of us allow the cracks to show from time to time. I think that you are doing the same. But honestly, I do not love you any less for it. Indeed, I am consistently bowled over by the amazing person that you are--the obstacles you have overcome, your honesty and candor, your compassion for others, your consistently fair administration of the site, and the time and effort you devote to this site.
But I do think that you would help yourself more if you would talk about what's going on behind the scenes. If not in a public thread, then maybe in Just for Us or a moderator thread. Or PM--I get the impression that you have done that with selected individuals. I just want you to be well and happy, and I'm distressed that you aren't.
