Okay, so I'm a little complicated and easily confused. I've always identified more masculine than feminine (born female-bodied), and am in the process of starting my physical transition. I feel weird as I progress because when I started, my view of gender was very close to the binary concept that society pushed on us. But now that I have expanded my knowledge on the topic and realized that there's nothing wrong with accepting and embracing my femininity along with my masculinity, I feel like I can't say I'm 100% male or anything. I'd say it's probably more 70/30. I heard the term "transdrogynous", and if it's what I think it sounds like, it sounds like that is more of how I feel. I identify more masculine, and I feel that I should have been born into a male body; but I also love some aspects of my feminine self (maybe a form of gender Stockholm Syndrome?), and I have always had interests that were both masculine and feminine (again, the split is about 70/30). I'm also terrified of some of the effects T will have on me in the long run due to the family history of male health, so I don't want to do a lot for long periods of time. I know I still want to transition, but can I be on HRT until I'm androgynous, then live my life mixing the two genders in both expression and identity? Can I take T for a period, then stop and restart at my choosing? Any advice or words of wisdom would be greatly appreciated.