What are you thinking? 8.0

[jussmoi4nao]

I'm thinking I'm nervous about putting my actual photo on here, but that I've become comfortable enough here to really open up and show myself.  So, my new profile photo is a real photo instead of an avatar.  Be kind.   

Adding:  I'm also thinking that I wish I could sleep.  It's 0300. 

It's really awesome to have a Cis/CAIS girl on here to give that perspective on Intersex and such issues just thought I'd say that

And you're very pretty BTW:)

[Shantel]

I'm thinking I'm nervous about putting my actual photo on here, but that I've become comfortable enough here to really open up and show myself.  So, my new profile photo is a real photo instead of an avatar.  Be kind.   

Adding:  I'm also thinking that I wish I could sleep.  It's 0300. 

You're a darling young woman Candice and yes to me it's quite clear that you are CAIS as I am personally familiar with the condition in another gal I used to know. The cute little female head and slender neck is a dead giveaway but no-one would see anything but a pretty cis female had you not said anything.

[Shantel]

There is first time for everything in life, and this is the first time anyone has ever told me that my CAIS can be noticed by looking at me. lol I guess it makes sense though if you really know what you're looking for. I've just never had anyone say it. So thank you for introducing me to something new in life.   And thank you for the very kind reply. 

And to clarify, this is only because you outed yourself as CAIS otherwise I would have never been the wiser, and btw you are beautiful Candice!

[Shantel]

That makes sense. Thank you Shantel.    (((((((HUG))))))

Best wishes for upcoming success, make us proud knowing we will have yet another doctor in the house.

[Bombadil]

Candice it's great to have you here and your avatar is cute

[Bombadil]

Is it worth an extra $30 to speed up the name change process? How much will it speed it up? I think I haven't been moving on this because I'm afraid I will hit another wall.

[King Malachite]

Fair enough, I'd never do commission work because it would be too stressful and not a lot of chance at payoff unless you're top notch with people (which I am not).

And thanks Malachite. I'm happy to have the shot at getting some cash and doing something rewarding and challenging. I've decided to get a car before I get the surgery funds piled up, because this job is in a seedy part of town and far from where I live. Until I have the car though, I'm going to be riding my bike every day to work. It's 30K one way. =/ The bike is electric so can help me a little, but how cool would it be if I could work up to doing the whole 30K? I'd be riding 60K a day in total. I used to do 30K rides easy before I got big, so hopefully my body will adjust.

It's kind of a good thing because I need to lose weight for my surgery anyway, since he wants to do a keyhole type thing on me. I swear to God, if I'm doing this 7 days a week, I'm going to have to think about surgery 24/7 to keep myself motivated.

Lol hey talk about knocking out two things with one stone.  I wish you the best of luck in your field!

[Bombadil]

I'm all relieved it's a big fly not a bee... hmm... I should really check when my epi-pens expire. dang things are so expensive

[jussmoi4nao]

I wish people would stop labeling their sexuality. I hate how a guy can't just look at me and be like "I'm attracted  to you let's bang" without over thinking it...like what the implications are, like does it make him straight, I or gay etc.  I wanna be like..it makes you a person who us interested in connecting with another person. Which is a beautiful thing because the human body is beautiful in general and it's what we're meant to do and just yeah.

The same goes for a lot of younger MtFs. They have to have strict rules for who they'll date and strict labels...the guy has to be a straight man because otherwise they feel invalidated and to me I just say...why? Like what difference does his sexuality make if the sexual (or romantic) compatibility is right? All the labels are social constructs anyway. They're not real..what's real is attraction and chemistry between two people. Things like sex, sexuality and gender should all be irrelevant if that's there.

I dunno, rant if the day over. I guess I'm just a very body and sex positive person. It'd be nice to find a guy like that..I'm not here to take care if somebody emotionally just because the boner I give them gives them a little self doubt and I'm a little sick of letting myself get caught up in that sense of obbligation

[FilaFord]

I'm thinking that I am one of the luckiest girls in the world to have been blessed with the parents that I have...

Today was so amazing and I can't even put it into words.  I just told my parents last week and my mom is already speaking as if she has known her daughter for years!  It's absolutely wonderful and I am so excited about the future. 

[Bombadil]

sorry

[Umiko]

i'm thinking i may as well stop my sabbatical since i cant avoid looking at the boards. so let the be my official i'm back. xD anyways, i'm thinking i'm hungry but cant find food, literally -.-

[Umiko]

i'm also thinking battle fatigue is hitting me hard. i slept almost 14 hours which isnt normal since i sleep maybe 3 hours at most o.o

[Edge]

I'm wondering why I keep getting inspired to do stuff in the middle of the night. In this case, a story idea. I wonder if I'm ever actually going to write anything.

[Adam (birkin)]

I wish people would stop labeling their sexuality. I hate how a guy can't just look at me and be like "I'm attracted  to you let's bang" without over thinking it...like what the implications are, like does it make him straight, I or gay etc.  I wanna be like..it makes you a person who us interested in connecting with another person. Which is a beautiful thing because the human body is beautiful in general and it's what we're meant to do and just yeah.

The same goes for a lot of younger MtFs. They have to have strict rules for who they'll date and strict labels...the guy has to be a straight man because otherwise they feel invalidated and to me I just say...why? Like what difference does his sexuality make if the sexual (or romantic) compatibility is right? All the labels are social constructs anyway. They're not real..what's real is attraction and chemistry between two people. Things like sex, sexuality and gender should all be irrelevant if that's there.

I dunno, rant if the day over. I guess I'm just a very body and sex positive person. It'd be nice to find a guy like that..I'm not here to take care if somebody emotionally just because the boner I give them gives them a little self doubt and I'm a little sick of letting myself get caught up in that sense of obbligation

I feel you Abby. If I had to label myself, I'd say I'm straight, cause I've only really liked women (doesn't matter if they are trans or cis). But I hate actually using the word, and I hated it before too as a "lesbian." Why can't I just like who I like? Why do I have to give myself a label that essentially limits me to women? Sure, so far it has been all girls, never met a guy I liked, but that shouldn't mean anything, I prefer to just let things unfold naturally. If that means a guy shows up then I might be a little surprised but I'm not going to get hung up on it.

[Jill F]

Yes, sexuality labels blow.  I could be attracted to pretty much anyone that I form an emotional bond with.

I like "light years beyond queer" lately...

[Umiko]

o.o well in my case i rather have the sexuality labels since every friggin time i go out, there's some pervert licking his lips at me whenever i wake by and hell i try not to be passable o.o

[jussmoi4nao]

I feel you Abby. If I had to label myself, I'd say I'm straight, cause I've only really liked women (doesn't matter if they are trans or cis). But I hate actually using the word, and I hated it before too as a "lesbian." Why can't I just like who I like? Why do I have to give myself a label that essentially limits me to women? Sure, so far it has been all girls, never met a guy I liked, but that shouldn't mean anything, I prefer to just let things unfold naturally. If that means a guy shows up then I might be a little surprised but I'm not going to get hung up on it.

Yeah, and I mean...that's not to say you have to stop liking what you like it start liking what you don't. Actually just the opposite, it means accepting what you're attracted to without labeling it. If someone's body turns you on and it's mutual then obviously you go for that so just enjoy the feeling and see where it can take you.

I think people are so determined to categorize themselves that they miss out or rake away from the experience. I personally like a flat chest and a dick..that just what turns me on and always has, and I don't see myself expanding on that. But there's endless variations and none of them need to be put in boxes.

[jussmoi4nao]

It's just annoying to have to have the same conversation over with guys who are constantly trying to reconcile their socially constructed concepts on sexuality with their interest in me. Its so frucken tiresome

[Umiko]

i'm thinking, what the hell is going on with my time? o: looking at my ticker and 11 days past in a flash o.o i'm starting to get worried. also i think its time i make it official and permanent change my gender marker though i still reside far outside the spectrum of being a female o.o