Love is unconditional. Period. Unfortunately, as many here have found, this does not always hold true. But what is true is the emotional burden, stress and torment you are under at this moment. The most liberating and empowering moment of my life was when I started speaking those words, "I am transgender" out loud. They started in my head. Then I started speaking them softly to myself in bed at night, next to my Shrink, then my PCP. As my list grew, immediate family, I tested the waters and came out to my wife. It didn't pan out as I had envisioned, a real sh*t-storm. Friends and family have dropped like flies and ostracized me. But these are things that you have to be prepared for and almost have to expect nor be afraid of, almost embrace. Strength is your ally; fear your enemy. And you should push all doubt out.
My biggest supporter is one of my son's. Lately, we've talked the religious aspect of transitioning and if God makes mistakes. There had been many nights that I had lain in bed, asking God to change me, make me right when I awoke. He never did. What he did do though was give me the strength and courage to do what I am doing now. And this does take and enormous amount of strength and courage. He's pretty religious, and always steers the answer in a very positive direction, to the point of offering LGBT supportive churches in my area. And just a little side note here too: Aren't Christian's supposed to be loving of everyone?
In the end, your happiness is most important, what matters the most. You have to be happy with you. Period.
Good luck!
