First forgive me I rarely make sense when I'm thinking straight

right now I'm postictal and tired so this is going to be even more fun. Typos and all
During therapy I was told I had trust issues, this is now surprise I have been left at train stations and told to make my own way to the city then hope onto the bus to my next destination AS A YOUNG TEENANGER. I see people on a side street with me I am going to cross the otherside sorry I'm tall but light paranoia is my friend and has helped me avoid danger and keped me safe even when finishing late in some of our less desirable areas.
The job I work in now (gambiling) I deal in a LOT fo cash the first thing we must do is make sure before we place a bet on is count the money and make sure they have enough otherwise it is classed as credit betting and
AGAINST THE LAW not enough money no bet no excuses, as the cash is always on sight we have to keep the alert for anyone suspiocues, (more parinoa and trust issues). As we generally work by ourselves we also have to count on the person before us that they haven't left us holding the preverbile bag (as has happened to me) and the people after us have to count on us. (We trust each other as a team but when you don't see them how do you trust them they are just names on a sheet of paper.) Me and lack of trust and some healthy paranoia very old and close friends, they always will be. I know it is sad but it helps me survive in my job and todays society.
Now this brongs this me to the reason to my post. Last night after I finished work I ended up having a seziuer. As I was ambulance officers rolled em ofer anfd placed me on the bed I noticed a hand in my back pocket as I waslayed doen I couldn't feel my phone that is kept in said pocket. While truing to convey what was going on everyone around me was refusing to listen WHERE has the trust in society gone today I know an epileptic after a seizure is not the most reliable witness but has society gone so far down that we have decided to take things of people when they are most helpless. While I don't trust people in general thanks to the lifestyle I led and the things I saw growing up I did have some faiuth in society that when push came to shove we would stick together.
SO THANK YOU WHOEVER YOU ARE FOR DESTROYING ONE OF MY LAST SHREADS OF FAITH IN HUMAN DECIENCY, and to the ambulance officeres out there and former ones (

Jessica) please listen to your paitence I know you can have some extremally busy days but if you had only taken a second to listen to me ionstead of trying to cart me of to hospital straight away maybe I would not of become a little more jaded and cynical today. Now excuse me for leaving my soap box here I can't dont have the strength to carry it I'm going to bed.
Gypsy