trans rites of passage: first pill on HRT.

[Emmaline]

It was one year short of a day from my 'uh oh... I am trans' to pill number 1.

It sounds like a shared right of passage.

"Neck it as fast as you get it!"

So day 2 and I am feeling so much more focused and engaged, like I have more bandwidth.  If, as seems to be what folk are saying, about three days in comes the serenity... well thats going to be pretty sweet.

[AnnieMay]

Talk about being impatient ... I remember the first day / week and the sort of unrealistic expectations I had. Intellectually I knew nothing would happen in the first hours and days, but I kept checking my mood and appearance. Couldn't come soon enough.

[Emmaline]

I know right?  I swore I wouldn't look because I know nothing would be happening- but I caught myself looking today.

Humans.

[TerriT]

My endo told me my script would be ready at the RX in about 5 mins, so I got them right away. I couldn't believe how u felt just walking out with them.

But...

I took them home and sat them on the shelf for 2 months. That was how long it took for me to get the ok from my SO. I cleared every other gatekeeper but she was the last. In the end, she told me to start on a Friday in August.

Starting hrt was a huge dream of mine, something that always felt unrealistic. But so did being in a relationship like this. My first hormones were very unceremonious and not a moment of celebration. It meant destroying the life I had created and hurting the person I loved the most.

[Jenny07]

So did the Boob fairy visit you overnight?

[Emmaline]

Thanks for sharing Tiff.  Sometimes you have to rebuild from the ground up- and you deserve a real life.

My last gatekeeper was my S.O. fortunately we set deadlines and kept to it.  It did mean months of moping around on pause. 

[Emmaline]

No booby fairy (titterbelle?  Tinkerboob?).  Bitch be late.  I specifically ordered full 'b's with lazers.

[Ms Grace]

Tinkerboob?

I don't even wanna go there! 

[ZoeM]

In my case I saw my endocrinologist at 5-ish PM on January 10. After the appointment I went straight to Target, got my precious low-dose pills, and brought them home. I made a little ritual for myself, sitting at my battered desk with the red plastic bottle in front of me, staring at it - I thought to myself that this was it - the first step into a crazy unknown, and everything that goes with it. Then without further ado I popped the first of what is now several thousand pills on my journey of a lifetime.

[Allyda]

Uh, Yea, "titterbelle," "titterboob," "boobygenie," where are these, well, these colorful terms coming from, lol!!! Anyway girl, let us know when they (your boobies) let you know. Mine were sore during my second week.

Best wishes.

Ally

[E-Brennan]

My first hormones were very unceremonious and not a moment of celebration. It meant destroying the life I had created and hurting the person I loved the most.

That was one of the saddest things I've read for a long time.  Made me think about whether my own decision was the right one, and of the trail of destruction left behind by so many of us through no fault of our own.  I hope things turn out well for you in the end, TiffanyT.  No, I'm sure they will.