The Lord, the devil, and trans

[Satinjoy]

First I do not think being trans is due to the devil.  if it involved self deception, maybe, but if you are true to yourself and the way the Lord designed you, then most definitely not.

Having said that and coming out of a recent life threatening battle with my dysphoria, the roots in that battle had to do with self deception, but it may also have to do with the enemy inflaming both dysphoric dissatisfaction (more more more), fear of losing everything, completely missing that God has a gentle and loving plan for my life, and completely ignoring everything I had learned of owning a legitamite non binary identity.

So, I wanted to warn all that the enemy may choose to exploit their trans-ness in any way he can to his advantage.  And of course the Lord is faithful and will overpower every plot, making us stronger and more truth centered after the battle.

Have you ever been down this road?  What tricks did the enemy try on you, so that we can expose the truth here and disarm the lies together.

I got really attacked hard in the previous two weeks, it was bad and very dangerous.  It also was a set up that took a month or two to come to fruition, the enemy is patient.   I think it takes some guts to post in this section, (not taking credit for this I have no guts, but Jesus in me does have the strength,) ----since posting causes us to be targets, but what choice do we have except to speak the truth?

Thoughts my dears?

[Vicky]

About the only "attack by the devil" that has ever really done too much to me is when I think I can live my life without God / My HP.  I am an Alcoholic / addict, Christian, Two Spirit Trans* woman, and without reliance on my HP, I get into deep doo doo.  Maybe its Satan, Lucifer or some other name, but same entity that does it to me, but I can do it to myself all too easily by letting my own self conceit take over and thinking I can do the job by myself, but maybe it is vanity to say I am the reason this happens and do not "give the devil his due" on getting me into the problems I have, but I get a better response when I pray "Not MY WILL but Thine be done!", than when I try to pass my own stuff off as having come from somewhere else.  Sometimes the response is "MY WILL is --------------!!  Anything from a Big Book of AA being open to a page that strikes me as a necessary meditaion, sometimes just seeing a beautiful sunset, other times a feeling of comfort as I approach the communion rail in church, and best of all seeing God's will in the smiles of my friends and grandchildren. 

[Satinjoy]

I have been 10th stepping my motives in general for posting, and it is not flattering to me.... feeding off of approval addiction, ego, getting compassion for the feminine expression of myself where there was none before and addicting to that and fast, all of it.  The enemy using my own deep need for the forum and not being alone, against me, pulling me into people pleasing and a childish outcry for attention.  And then the enemy taking advantage of all of it.  And then there was the genuine mental crisis that resulted.

I think there are a bunch of sober folk in here, to out great blessing

Interesting with acceptance and with surrender to the non binary identity came a release from the obsession and fighting, a similar thing happened after a 6 hour white knuckle battle with alcohol many years ago, on a pivotal point when it broke and I knew it was possible to stay sober, there seems to be a parallel.  This was a fight with myself instead, with the idea that full transition as defined as FTE was inevitable, and it is not.  I am already fully transitioned now, as a non binary entity.

But I could feel that dark spirit around, it gave me the creeps.  Now it is gone.

Thanks for responding.  Blessings.

I am dead without God.  Totally defenseless without Him.

What a gift for you to be sober, Vicky, how wonderful that you are one of the many miracles on the site!

[SarahM777]

First I do not think being trans is due to the devil.  if it involved self deception, maybe, but if you are true to yourself and the way the Lord designed you, then most definitely not.

Having said that and coming out of a recent life threatening battle with my dysphoria, the roots in that battle had to do with self deception, but it may also have to do with the enemy inflaming both dysphoric dissatisfaction (more more more), fear of losing everything, completely missing that God has a gentle and loving plan for my life, and completely ignoring everything I had learned of owning a legitamite non binary identity.

So, I wanted to warn all that the enemy may choose to exploit their trans-ness in any way he can to his advantage.  And of course the Lord is faithful and will overpower every plot, making us stronger and more truth centered after the battle.

Have you ever been down this road?  What tricks did the enemy try on you, so that we can expose the truth here and disarm the lies together.

I got really attacked hard in the previous two weeks, it was bad and very dangerous.  It also was a set up that took a month or two to come to fruition, the enemy is patient.   I think it takes some guts to post in this section, (not taking credit for this I have no guts, but Jesus in me does have the strength,) ----since posting causes us to be targets, but what choice do we have except to speak the truth?

Thoughts my dears?

In many ways and many forms. Sometimes it's deep dark and deadly thoughts that he uses. Just some of the things he has tried to use against me. For those who are not in a good place at the moment for your please do not read any further.







"How can God possibly love a freak like you?" "If God loves you SO MUCH why did He allow this to happen to YOU?" "Do you really think He cares that much about YOU?" "Look at the mess you have made out of your life because of this." "Do you really think anyone is going to miss you at all? Look at all the so called friends in your life. You don't have any." "Do you really think anyone cares at all?" "Look at what happens when you open your mouth,they all leave. What earthly good are you? Why not just end it all?" "Why do you keep going on? Do you really think it's ever going to end in this life?"  "Do you really think God is going to allow you to have the surgery,look what happens over and over again? Every time you think you are able to be able to cross that line,it's taken away from you. How does that show that God really loves you?"

The devil know show to hit us below the belt. He never fights fair. It's dirty,nasty and most often he hits us in our thoughts,and many times he can come at us through ourselves and through others too. And many times he can even use something good as a weapon if need be.

[Satinjoy]

And he is defeated.

And we win.

Best way to fight those thoughts?  Not unusual for sure...

We sure are beautiful in His sight and He listens every time we open our mouths.... and our hearts... there is great compassion for us from Him and this world is in darkness.  I know this.  It is not debatable.  But there are trials, pains, difficulties, delays, just like for normies out there.  Fear knocked, faith answered, no one was at the door...

[gennee]

God has a plan for ll of us. My being trans was hidden from me until the appropriate for it to be revealed. When I accepted that I was transgender, I felt no guilt or shame. Life can throw some real curves and this was certainly one. What I have concluded is that He knew that I could live this life with his help. The opportunity to share with others that God loves me as a transgender person.

[Satinjoy]

In many ways and many forms. Sometimes it's deep dark and deadly thoughts that he uses. Just some of the things he has tried to use against me. For those who are not in a good place at the moment for your please do not read any further.







"How can God possibly love a freak like you?"You are not a freak, you are a child of God. The devil is the freak.  Trans is beautiful

"If God loves you SO MUCH why did He allow this to happen to YOU?" Because you are worthy of the trial, because you will help others, because He took so much on Himself on the cross, because there will be joy in the morning

"Do you really think He cares that much about YOU?" He took the cross on your behalf, to bring you to Him for eternity, in paradise, all we have to do is complete the task of out lives

"Look at the mess you have made out of your life because of this." No frame of reference here, except that if we live in His will, it isnt a mess.  It becomes something different.

"Do you really think anyone is going to miss you at all? Look at all the so called friends in your life. You don't have any." You have a thousand watchers her that are caring, and many more real friends in the forum.  And when you are genuine, those friends that come forward love you as you are, not as they want you to present to them in their own self will.

"Do you really think anyone cares at all?" "Look at what happens when you open your mouth,they all leave. What earthly good are you? Why not just end it all?" All or nothing thought.  If just one person cares, besides Jesus, then you are special, and if you care for yourself and love yourself for the courage to be trans, you can endure.  Ending it all is never the answer.  In AA we call it drinking before the miracle.  Don't self destruct before the miracle.  Outlast the bull.

"Why do you keep going on? Do you really think it's ever going to end in this life?"  We keep on because we must.  Others will be strengthened by our walk

"Do you really think God is going to allow you to have the surgery,look what happens over and over again? Every time you think you are able to be able to cross that line,it's taken away from you. How does that show that God really loves you?" God has His own timing.  When it is fully in fruition, He that give His children good gifts, will give this too you, it would only be withheld if it was going to hurt you, and delays are not "no's".

The devil know show to hit us below the belt. He never fights fair. It's dirty,nasty and most often he hits us in our thoughts,and many times he can come at us through ourselves and through others too. And many times he can even use something good as a weapon if need be.The battlefield of the mind by Joyce Meyer, and the Invisible war if still in print, I don't remember the author.

I hope some of this could help.  Has anyone else got anything to help here to remove these firey darts from our friend?

[SarahM777]

I hope some of this could help.  Has anyone else got anything to help here to remove these firey darts from our friend?

These are some of the ways that he tries to get to me. One of the things I have learned over the years is the WHEN and HOW he tries to use these against me. Sometimes it is when I am dealing with some people,especially the you're perverted,mental etc type of stuff,for me that almost always comes through someone else.

Sometimes he uses the circumstances,other people moving forward,but at the same time due to finances or some other that may need to be worked out that as of yet I do not know,I am still at the point of not being able to move forward,it is not yet the time for me to be able to do so.

The the third is being alone a lot,not yet sure how I can change that. The area I live in and the church I am at at the moment is mostly geared towards families. Not being married and having no children of my own is one factor,being care taking of my mom and seeing her slowly starting to shows subtle signs of dementia coming on is not helping,as she was one I could talk to about a lot of things.

Sometimes seeing that it appears (Not that it is) that others needs often seems to mean that one own needs are left by the wayside. And often times he uses the frustration.

We are told greater is He who is in us then he who is the world. We are told to transformed by the renewing or own mind. We are told to resist the devil and he will flee. We have not been left powerless to overcome him,but it is not always easy to do.

[Satinjoy]

Prayer support requested, all kinds of heck is breaking loose around me, nasty attacks from the enemy on finances, kids, you name it.  The Lord has me covered, but by taking a public stand like this, I get an aweful lot of flack.

Firey dart for me:  If you keep proclaiming Christ especially to the transgendered community, I will destroy you and everyone you care for.  A dart from the enemy of our souls.  A standard one, saying the closer I get to God and the more I tell of His amazing compassion, the more I get messed with here on earth, the more threats, the more attempts to strike fear into my heart, the more I have to pray to get through the day and just have the guts to keep on.

Tired of that today.

But how can I be silent about Jesus due to intimidation from below or other flesh?  Who else can I turn to?  I would be dead without Him, no kidding, and I know I am defenseless and my only defense comes from above.

Pray for me and my family please.  I KNOW He is with me, but we need to rally together as people of faith who also are people of trans.   There is so much against us, but Jesus knows who we are and how we are designed, ultimately to His glory.

What higher calling than helping other people of trans and restoring some back to the author of the cross and of Life itself?

I cannot be silent.  I simply have no choice but to be real and state what I believe, gambling my soul on being right and hearing truth from God.

I cannot help but wonder sometimes if others read these posts and attempt to curse us because we are Christians.  I hope not.  That is another dart.  But I have seen the living Christ and He is not one to mess with from the side of evil.  The power I saw in that vision was indescribable, uncanny, like nothing you have ever encountered before.  That was a vision of the slain lamb of God, after I has risked everything I had to do something for Him, lost it all, and he came and told me "this is what i did for you".  Throat cut and all, and very much alive.  The next day, I showed at an interview, and was hired as a diamond/jewelry driver for UPS handing out bibles to the teamsters with a far more powerful ministry than anything else I could of done.  That was Jesus plan.  Mine fell flat but my motives were pure.

He is your God too, He did that for you too.

How can I possibly be silent after seeing that?  Stone cold sober too, I haven't had a mood changing chemical or drink in 28 1/2 years, and 30 for booze.

It sure is intense being Christian, especially one that is a no op TS genderqueer.

And the enemy is whispering that while I share this with all of you, he is going to retaliate.  I am in the Lords hands He will do what He desires with and through me, and I am nothing but clay.  His will be done.  I will not shut up about who He is and the reality of His power and forgiveness.

God Bless.   I hope He doesn't mind me sharing that vision publically.  I feel convicted, fearing others will judge it as crazy, and in so doing offend the living God.

Tired today.  Please pray for each other here.  God bless, love to all that post and to our silent watchers on line and in the unseen world too.

[mottec]

heres how I reasoned:

Lucifer is depicted as goat with breasts. Gender fluidity is clearly the ultimate evil in christianity. I lost all hope and went on drinking and aggresive path for a while. Only later did I see that LGBT issues were more accepted with the church. But really see the picture: