Having grown up in two separate, dysfunctional families, I can empathize with feeling separate from your folks. I often found a "second home" in the families of friends, but there was the implicit and respected wish that, whatever shelter they'd offered me if I were ever homeless or in danger, I not be there during holidays. My choices were to brave drama and people who'd physically assaulted me or sit in my room alone.
Leaving something you were born into or grew up with isn't easy, but this is an opportunity for a new family and social circle. There are people out there who can help you heal and will treat you like a human being. There aren't many people who are as loving or as loyal as a pet, but there are still possibilities. I can't remember the last time I turned to a family member other than my father (finally present in my life again at 23), and with the friends I have I probably never will. I'm not their sort-of kid, and they would keep me for Christmas.
I always have and always will advise, if your family does not provide for you then turn elsewhere for love and nurturing. Don't waste away trying to win it from people who don't want to give it.
