So I'm currently approaching the 7 month mark on hormones in a few days. Woot.
The 6 month one had me really depressed for a couple reasons. Mostly because life's little milestones depress me in general, like birthdays and such.
But this time I think I'm okay and you know, I heard some people saying 7 months is big deal so I figured I'd do one of these.
The physical effects have been good. I've gotten like a fair amount of breast development. I'm 32Bs ATM. Actually I know a lot of you on herehave already seen my breasts on Tumblr and 4chan and the like lulz...and I also know what's been said about me by a couple people haha (for instance that I have a bad personality which is true haha). And I don't care haha.
Anyways. Aside from boobs I'm really not sure what to look for physically. I was always fairly hairless and had soft skin. Though I will say my skin seems to have gotten even softer on my arms especially. I had a couple breakouts earlier on in transition from the hormones but now that's leveled off the hormones do seem to be making my skin clearer and softer on my face which is nice.
What eelse let's see. Sexual functioning. That has become significantly impaired. However I plan on camming in the winter time so I've been practicing to get it back (because a lot of its about usage) and it does seem to be slowly returning, which is good for me, because I figure if I have the parts I want them to work, I suppose, also because guys i date like it to work. But yeah if you don't exercise it you will lose functionality.
My hair growth has come along fairly well I guess. Now that it's blonde, it's long enough to the point where I'm just going to let it go and not worth about it. Cuz before I was like...obsessed. Like ohh my god y gaur has to be long NOW...but now I'm not making a huge deal, even though I'm really looking forward to having it longer.
Emotionally it's been a rollercoaster. I've always been a bit odd I suppose, but now I just go crazy sometimes. I'm not sure if that's from the hormones or what. Probably a combination of things. And when I get down it gets really really bad. Depression hits harder even than before when it hits.
Sexuality, my sexuality has stayed the same. I've as always liked guys and that hasn't changed. But I've gotten more open minded I'd say and am willing to try a lot more things with guys, which has been fun.
I'd say I've dealt with some bigotry from people who knew me pre transition in this. Some people said some hateful things when they've found out and I got kicked out by my grandma. But it's whatever. I have one friend I just saw for the first time yesterday and apparently she took my mom aside and was crying and said how beautiful I was and said I "was a cute ad a boy but absolutely beautiful as a girl" so that was nice because most so called friends have faded away after they found out. And that girl used to be a bigot soo people change.
Socially I'd say I'm pretty much 100% female now. I pass completely no matter what I wear and wear female clothes only and makeup everyday and everyone knows me as Abby at this point. I just gave a couple document changes I need to finalize is all but other than that..
But yeah. Life's been going okay. My message to new transitioners is that hormones, transition etc isn't a panecea. Its not going to solve your problems. You just have to do what you have to do. But try not to wait. Don't wait on hormones, don't wait in hair, etc. Live your life for now. And be brave. Don't be afraid to do and say what you want to because you'll have to to survive this life.
Do a gut check and make sure you gave what it takes. And once you make your decision make it final. Don't ever look back, even for a glimpse
