Hi girls,
OK, so, all has been a little hectic over the past two weeks or so. And I have been full time since last Monday. As I said in my last post I met with Keisha in town and bought loads of clothes all Vampire Goth! Gorgeous!! And as she promised came back to my flat and helped out, make up how to dress everything. Keisha braided some white and red extensions into my hair and started on my makeup. White foundation, translucent powder, plucked my eyebrows, well pretty much removed them to be honest, and then drew them back on in a beautiful arc. I had bought a Victorian style bustle skirt, black lace with burgundy silk frills. Black Victorian laced boots with a two inch heel. Black footless leggings with burgundy ribbon lacing down the front. A gold & black brocade waist trainer corset, Burgundy lace top with long frilled cuffs, and a floor length black silk coat tight in at the waist with lacing down the back. Keisha did my eyes in black and red, cat shaped. Ruby lip stick and grey blusher. Black nails, then finished. I looked in the mirror and stood there with my mouth open. Keisha said that I looked stunning. Sweetie. Then she said, you will go out on Sunday girl! I just nodded. So Sunday came Keisha came over with Aaron, we disappeared into the bedroom, Aaron sat in the lounge, when we came out again, he sat and stared at me for what felt an age. Then he said well, we had better show off our new Vampire! I froze at the front door I panicked Arron just gave me my handbag then gently but firmly guided me out of the flat. We took a cab to the station we were going to Leicester. Anyway we got off the train and walked to the club; Keisha on one side of Aaron and me on the other. People just stopped and stared, I felt marvellous, and it showed in my walk. I had the time of my life, must have danced with ten guys, one none Goth said to me at the bar, I would offer you a drink, but you may bite my neck, I just said you should hope that is all that I bite. Keisha nearly collapsed with laughter, the poor guys hands flew protectively to his crotch. I kissed his cheek and walked away!
Last week I had three days off from work, and decided to tell my boss, this is me, for the first time in a long time I am happy calm and at ease with myself. I am a woman! I called him and asked him to come over as I needed to talk to him. I kept my clothes feminine but not to girly. He sat down and I just blurted it all out. He sat silent for ages, and then said OK, I am not surprised you never were very convincing as a guy anyway, you look much better as a girl. I will make sure everything is OK at the office for you. So I went as me last Thursday, patent pink Dr Martin's boots, queen of darkness t-shirt dress slashed down the back, red tights cropped biker jacket and my skull handbag! I got checked out at the station by a cute guy. I got some very odd looks at the office however, we all had a meeting and not one person was cruel or nasty. Anna said you are far too pretty for a boy, can you show me how I can do my eyes like yours? So girls here I am sat at my desk, as me, Jayne. I use the girls toilets etc. no one protested. If this is a dream then I never want to wake up. I even wander around the office barefoot. All remnants of the boy have now gone, taken everything to the council dump! Going to the doctor's tomorrow evening to ask for HRT, as me, no pretending anymore. Deed poll done on line. Tax office told. Even the security guard opened the door for me this morning, he said good morning miss!!! OMG I am so, so, so happy. I haven't cried once, in a week, used to cry all of the time. Thank you all for listening girls. Goldfish thank you so much Hun if not for your comments this would not have happened.
