I figured something out

[Rawb]

I think... I think God made me transgendered on purpose.

I think I was always supposed to be a boy, but making me female-bodied, was a gift to my family.

Because, my older brother got married, and his wife is infertile, so they can't have kids.
And my younger sister just had surgery to remove a cyst, and the doctors had to remove her entire ovary, so she doesn't have much a chance to get pregnant (and she's more work oriented anyways and a bit of a germaphobe).
And I had two kids. So if it wasn't for me, my dad would never get to have grandchildren, and my brother and sister would never get to be uncle or aunt, and my grandparents would never get to be great-grandparents.

And I'm gay.

So if I were born a boy, I would never ever get a wife and have kids that way.

Looking at it in this light, I feel better. And I don't really question anymore, why I was born in a female body when I'm a guy. And I hate my female body less, because I understand now, that it was important to have it just as long as I did, and that my transition start now, when I'm 29, instead of when I was younger. It no longer feels like I wasted all this time in the wrong body. It now feels like God had me female just as long as I needed to be, and now that I've had kids, and given that gift to my family, I can be who I'm supposed to be.

I feel sort of happy. And a little bit enlightened.

[Jess42]

I think... I think God made me transgendered on purpose.

I feel sort of happy. And a little bit enlightened.

I believe in reincarnation but do follow Christ's teachings though. I believe we choose who we are for whatever reason before our incarnations into a physical body but that's not really the point though whether we choose or God makes the choice for us. We just have to deal with it according to what we need to do.

Enlightenment is the the reason. But seriously hon, trying to understand the mind of God is the answer to the question in my opinion. Whether we do or can't understand we are trying to at least. Anyway, being trans led me down many different paths do get where I am today and my belief system.

Anyway I follow Christ but not in a traditional main stream sense though. But regardless, enlightenment is knowledge and understanding so bask in it and listen to that little voice. The best saying that I have ever heard is that God doesn't shout but rather whispers.