Hello there. I have been lurking around here for a while and finally decided to introduce myself. I won't use my real name but I can tell y'all a little about myself. I'm from Colorado originally and am relocating to Dallas, Texas soon for graduate school. Recently I've been plagued with some old issues I thought I had buried a long time ago but apparently haven't resolved yet. I've always identified officially as a gay man but somehow that label just never felt right because it didn't describe all that I was/am. I adore men romantically but the idea of myself with a man AS A MAN has always felt somewhat wrong to me. This is primarily because deep down I guess I've always thought of myself as something else. I grew up in a very conservative family so just acknowledging same sex attraction was a huge deal and until recently I never allowed myself to admit my feelings about my gender identity. I've struggled with gender roles and trying to suppress my femininity for a very long time and I'm finally ready to explore that more. I don't quite know if I am transgendered but I feel it's a very real possibility. I've spent so many years hating myself over this that I just can't do it anymore. I think my first task will be finding the right professional to speak with about this. I am a graduate student on a budget but luckily I have health insurance. If anyone is from the DFW area and can recommend anyone it would be appreciated. In any case I'm pleased to join everyone here.
