There's a bit of apprehension but it does give way to an exhilarating rush. It reminds me of that old Kids in the Hall skit about the man everyone knew was gay except himself. He eventually, in the movie Brain Candy, busts out in a full on dance number through the town and proudly proclaims "I'm GAAAAAY" and the response is a resounding, SO WHAT? I honestly, think I've made a bigger deal about this than a good 80% of my friends. My family on the other hand, is a different story...