I just got some unfortunate news from my physician about my levels

) My dosage wasn't always steady; I was on the patch for a while, but no matter where I put it, it wouldn't stay on for more than a few days-and then I missed about a month of pills. But I've been on a pretty steady regimen for the better part of a year now-and my results haven't been stelar, but I'm not sure if that's just because I come from a family of tall, small breasted women in general.
I met with my physician; he's not an endocrinologist, but he practices at an LGBT clinic, and has plenty of experience. He told me that my testosterone is way beyond acceptable levels-high in the 200s-which on it's own wouldn't be a huge issue, I've had this problem before. But he also said that my prolactin is high-not at scary levels, but high enough that he's not entirely raising my dosage. I told him that I hadn't been perfect about taking the pills, which is true-I'd miss a dose every few days, and he said we should wait a month or two, but no longer than that.
I've been very diligent this past month not to miss any doses; my appetite is spiking (which is probably a good thing, I'm six feet tall, 130lbs, and my shoulders shot my modeling career in the back of the head months ago), and my breasts are tender for some reason. Still, I'm completely panicking. He's talking about taking me off the hormones, or "re-considering our options", and I'm so scared that my levels won't be correct by next month. I don't know if I can live without hormones...the thought of watching my body become that which I've worked so hard to escape is to much for me to bear. I have all of these stupid, drastic measures flitting about in my head, if things don't correct themselves-quitting school to raise money for an orchi, even doing it myself-or something worse. Sorry to vent like this, but I've come this far and now it's all up in the air...anyways, if anyone has some advice for me, please please let me know.
Dosages removed - please don't post dosages
Cindy