I can remember the first day I started HRT and the perceptions I had going forward. Oh my... has that perception changed. I can remember my therapist saying that my female side will get stronger and stronger and my memories of behavior and rationalization, when I was a male, will fade into distant memories. I remember saying that I could control this until I had all the building bricks in my new life in place. The best made plans of mice and men just don't pan out the way we expect.
I'm naturally very sociable and flambouyant and supress that when HRT started so as not to be clocked. That has changed recently and I know I'm getting the need to be me and soon maybe I can change my avitar to the real me.